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last night was a trip.
well yesterday, me & jewelle went hiking up through this nice neighborhood in signal hill. we made it to the top to the park and it was so cool! then we went to del amo mall to check out the new area they built. the owners of the block did the new area so they have cool stores, esp urbanoutfitters! yay! the closest one used to be in irvine, so im happy about that. we just stayed for a little while then we came back, watched the episode of greys that we recorded on our DVR (hoooray for that), and then i got ready for dx's party....
the goal of the night: omg drunk....
outcome of the night: success
i havent been drunk in a while, traumatized from last time i guess
anyways, it was The Standard party w/ cocktails, drinks, and black white & gold attire.
the night started off on a bad key, but i just tried to put that aside and focus on having fun w/ the girls since i barely see them
then i got, what i call, "ignored"...so i "ignored" back and kept drinking and having fun
then i got the, "we should talk" talk...and then things were just annoying, not even sad, but annoying
i dont know what to do, and i hate when i get asked "so what do you want to do" just so that it would be termed "my fault" if anything bad were to come out of it, and that in my opinion, is annoying. if youre gonna talk to me and tell me we have to talk, then talk, dont get me to decide everything...u brought it up, so say something.
thats all i really want. just say something. im a believer in "you dont know what you got til its gone"....and maybe, just maybe....that'll happen. cuz i know u are the best guy i've ever had....ever. but you know what you're lacking, and ive told you a thousand times. maybe its just not in you to be that guy....even though i wish it was. i know not everyone is perfect. im probably not the perfect person to you, but you dont say anything. i do. so i dont know....i dont even think you'll even read this. i just hope whatever happens, happens for a reason, and turns out for the best.
well yesterday, me & jewelle went hiking up through this nice neighborhood in signal hill. we made it to the top to the park and it was so cool! then we went to del amo mall to check out the new area they built. the owners of the block did the new area so they have cool stores, esp urbanoutfitters! yay! the closest one used to be in irvine, so im happy about that. we just stayed for a little while then we came back, watched the episode of greys that we recorded on our DVR (hoooray for that), and then i got ready for dx's party....
the goal of the night: omg drunk....
outcome of the night: success
i havent been drunk in a while, traumatized from last time i guess
anyways, it was The Standard party w/ cocktails, drinks, and black white & gold attire.
the night started off on a bad key, but i just tried to put that aside and focus on having fun w/ the girls since i barely see them
then i got, what i call, "ignored"...so i "ignored" back and kept drinking and having fun
then i got the, "we should talk" talk...and then things were just annoying, not even sad, but annoying
i dont know what to do, and i hate when i get asked "so what do you want to do" just so that it would be termed "my fault" if anything bad were to come out of it, and that in my opinion, is annoying. if youre gonna talk to me and tell me we have to talk, then talk, dont get me to decide everything...u brought it up, so say something.
thats all i really want. just say something. im a believer in "you dont know what you got til its gone"....and maybe, just maybe....that'll happen. cuz i know u are the best guy i've ever had....ever. but you know what you're lacking, and ive told you a thousand times. maybe its just not in you to be that guy....even though i wish it was. i know not everyone is perfect. im probably not the perfect person to you, but you dont say anything. i do. so i dont know....i dont even think you'll even read this. i just hope whatever happens, happens for a reason, and turns out for the best.