I need a horseback ride

[franksanatra]

Hey.... I'm so confused..... i'm tired of jon always going to charlotte but i konw that he has always gone to her. On the other hand i dont like that tonight he pulled her ino his jacket like he did i said somthing but all i got was a smart mouth remark. and then i kicked him and he just sat in his car and pouted. i left him be and then he wondered why he was an asshole. ERRRR.. what is charlotte to him that i'm not?? i'm always trying to be there for him yet it seems evertime that i get close he pushes away and runs to charlotte and then blames it on they was he was brought up... whats wrong with me? why doesnt he want me other than to make out...i want to be the FIRST that he thinks about when he has a problem not charlotte and she said that its nartual for any guy to want to talk to someone other than there boyfirend or girlfriend. it like i want to be close to him, but i guess its just to soon for him to want it as much as i do. i have liked him a lot longer and than he ever knew..... so i guess that i'm not confused i'm just upset and need time to think and a place to get to to do it.

i'll go horseback riding tomorrow morning !