my live in a nut shell
What is life worth? why do we do what we do ? I dont want to be doing the things i'm doing. i dont want a busy life. i dont want anything........ at the age of 17 people expect you to choose who your going to be for the rest of your life, they think your responsible enough to make that decison as to were you want to go to college and what you are going to major in. But i dont want to make the decision right now. i'm tired of life of having to do things and having consiquences for them. Having homework and work and the same damn thing everyday. why can't we just be told what to do ? i was talking to leah today and told her that i'm just plan tired. i'm tired of smiling when everything isnt alright and tired of laughing when it hurts or told to act one way and wanting to do it another. i'm tired of boys, and men they and playing the who likes who game. its tiring and i dont care anymore. The times i think that i'm done with guys a guy walks into my life and looks great but as my uncle says the will say anything they can to get you,
now i dont mean to bash you boys... i know that some of you arent that way. and that others are and will admit to it. ( like a jake....:) i dont know i feel like i just........i dunno I just dont know what I want to do with my life I thought that I did. and now my mother is telling me that i shouldnt go to patrick henrey next year but wait a year. and i think if i wait a year i wont go. and if i fail my math class this semester i have to quite the college and start working cause my parents cant afford college my horse, my goat, my gas, and my cell phone bill.so somthing will have to give and even though she always says school comes first. i'm not going to go to school and put my parents in debt i'll just quite. and besides i dont even now what to do with my life so why continue to go to school?. and everyone says to get a good job. but if you look at it. I cant take anything to heaven not my job , the money i will earn, or the possesions i will get because of the money i earned. so why get a degree if in the long run( going to heaven) i'm not going to need it or have it?
Pondering mysteries with a girlfriend over tazoberry tea and an open bible, there we were asking all the deep questions. about life and love and God and... and how it all comes to be and why this and why the and why me and why not and why, and why do i think this way? i wonder why.. i wonder, wonder, wonder, why. i wonder, wonder why all of these questions echo in my mind. i wonder why. Throughout the resy of the converstation i kept coming back to one thing. i dont understand. why would god leave all of heavens glory just to come and live and die as a man? and why grace and why mercy and why give it all for me and why and why does he love this way? why does he love me like he loves me? all of theses questions echo in my mind. every little thing that my mind can question just leads me back to one thing. I wonder why your love is so amazing i just cant believe it its so rich and wide ,I wonder why.....
now i dont mean to bash you boys... i know that some of you arent that way. and that others are and will admit to it. ( like a jake....:) i dont know i feel like i just........i dunno I just dont know what I want to do with my life I thought that I did. and now my mother is telling me that i shouldnt go to patrick henrey next year but wait a year. and i think if i wait a year i wont go. and if i fail my math class this semester i have to quite the college and start working cause my parents cant afford college my horse, my goat, my gas, and my cell phone bill.so somthing will have to give and even though she always says school comes first. i'm not going to go to school and put my parents in debt i'll just quite. and besides i dont even now what to do with my life so why continue to go to school?. and everyone says to get a good job. but if you look at it. I cant take anything to heaven not my job , the money i will earn, or the possesions i will get because of the money i earned. so why get a degree if in the long run( going to heaven) i'm not going to need it or have it?
Pondering mysteries with a girlfriend over tazoberry tea and an open bible, there we were asking all the deep questions. about life and love and God and... and how it all comes to be and why this and why the and why me and why not and why, and why do i think this way? i wonder why.. i wonder, wonder, wonder, why. i wonder, wonder why all of these questions echo in my mind. i wonder why. Throughout the resy of the converstation i kept coming back to one thing. i dont understand. why would god leave all of heavens glory just to come and live and die as a man? and why grace and why mercy and why give it all for me and why and why does he love this way? why does he love me like he loves me? all of theses questions echo in my mind. every little thing that my mind can question just leads me back to one thing. I wonder why your love is so amazing i just cant believe it its so rich and wide ,I wonder why.....