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Woah, my internet works finally. Havnt updated since about friday I do belive. I dont think anyone reads this anymore so I think il make this my last entry. Whatever.
I remember starting this journal just after heslops party, I wanted to get some feelings out of me that I felt for another person....which I did :). I'v been using it as a diary thing for about 4/5 months now. Time to let go im afraid, il use my private one of course but thats all.
I guess il tell my self how I feel today then :S. Well, I dont really know how I feel to be honest, after coming to terms with something I just looked upon. Must have looked at it a least 30 times over now. Mixed emotions I guess. Wont go in to great detail though, not publishing my emotions, I think thats wrong. Your personal feelings are for you to experience, not anyone else. Guess thats one of the reasons im gonna stop this journal.
I'm going to beckys today, at about 1. I have little streangth in me but I didnt see her yesterday cause I could hardly move (no food in me). There was no way I could have gone there, well, there was....but my dad was out. Im gonna have a big dinner, then il feel good :D.
Sunday I was one sick bastard. My whole body ached, especialy the stomach and head. I got out of the bath and nearly died :p. Worst pain iv been in, in a long time. Thankfully that was only a 24 hour thing. I feel fine now, just foodless :(. I dont have an appetite though, which is what I always do have :s.
If I ever read this in 20 years, this very sentance I want to experience what I feel now. Everything feels perfect, Im happy and alot of other things. Nothing feels like its gonna go wrong. I have one thing to get off my chest today but I dont think anything will go wrong there ;). I never want to change my situation, especialy with one other significant. I want to stay like this for as long as possible.
Well, for the last time, bye. Il leave some pics of all the peeps that make me truly happy.
Bye.