this will be my last entry
i've probably never fucked up so bad ever in my life. i lost a girlfriend. i lost muliple friends. i lost a bestfriend. why? because i am a piece of shit.
i accept i fucked up and i deserved everything.
i apoligize for everything i've done. i'm sorry will never be enough and i know this.
i can only hope everything will eventually work out.
monday i am taking a step to fixing my problems and getting help for my depression.