random coughs

[frankiss]

sweaty
on the balcony
unconsiously
i was naked
wearing these
classy shades from value village
(kaneda ukay)

went back
to the room
which is such a mess
to messy
to even start where and what spot i should
start cleaning

i was on the lake
and wondering
why i deserve all this bad luck and pain

in all the relationships i have ever been (friends, lovers, etc..)

i had no intentions of hurting anyone
and this is what i get

more hurt
as they
say
"to those much has given much is expected"

but i am uninspired
i am always stable when in a relationship
but never again will i force myself on anyone
to add that it makes me look cheap
it is wasted effort

all that i have planned
all that i have arranged
all that i have sacrificed
has gone nowhere
well i have 200 bucks on my debit account

and a no care to anything to anyone
if you want me
show up on my door