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so i guess...
i'm an ugly lost girl that's creepy and stalker-esque.
nice to know.
all i want is to make him happy.
that's all.
but that's not gunna happen, is it?
cuz i'm never good enough.
there's always something wrong with me.
I saw a picture of Ian and I today.
And I remembered why I was glad we didn't have pictures together.
If you look at it, you can see the love in our eyes.
It's gone now.
Nothing is left of that look he was giving me.
Dan gives me that look now.
Even if he doesn't realize it.
I think I'm gunna go cry now.
Not for Ian.
Not for Dan.
For myself.
I am lost.
But I found myself with Ian.
And I found myself again with Dan.
I'm fighting a losing battle, it seems, with Dan.
But I don't know what else to do.
i'm an ugly lost girl that's creepy and stalker-esque.
nice to know.
all i want is to make him happy.
that's all.
but that's not gunna happen, is it?
cuz i'm never good enough.
there's always something wrong with me.
I saw a picture of Ian and I today.
And I remembered why I was glad we didn't have pictures together.
If you look at it, you can see the love in our eyes.
It's gone now.
Nothing is left of that look he was giving me.
Dan gives me that look now.
Even if he doesn't realize it.
I think I'm gunna go cry now.
Not for Ian.
Not for Dan.
For myself.
I am lost.
But I found myself with Ian.
And I found myself again with Dan.
I'm fighting a losing battle, it seems, with Dan.
But I don't know what else to do.