Where have you been?
Wow. Hello live journal. I have gotten so bored in the past few hours I decided to make a lame attempt at bringing you back from the dead. I don't know why I have completely stopped writing in my LJ, it use to be something I did atleast once a week or else I felt bad... as if I owe it to all my readers (ha thats sarcastic) to write about my melodramatic, extra emo, funny but sometimes pathetic stories of love, misfortune, school, and alcohol. Well, here's an update for anyone who still reads this thing.
I live in Chicago. I've been dating Danny now for almost 6 months. We have a kitten, Goblin. I read, take my little online courses, and then sit around in lazy bliss. If there was anyone who use to be interested in my life, they have probably exited out of this page by now, but I'll continue.
I graduate in August. I think, I hope. I only have to take 16 credits this summer. For a girl who usually only takes 12 credits over a period of 18 weeks this may be difficult. Oh well, I'm sick of being an undergraduate.
My biggest issue lately has been balancing. I think that may be the biggest lesson I learned this semester... and I'm not even totally sure I learned it, rather I just became more aware of how much I need it. I have discovered that either I am obsessive over the organization of my life or I have no order whats so ever. I have a "fuck it" or "do your best" attitude, and I never settle for anything inbetween. Is there a way to "fuck it" and "do your best?" If there is, I am surely pursueing it unintentionally.
I can't figure out WHAT to be concerned with. Should I be more worried then I am about money, the future, my weight, my life? or should I be less worried? What should I do about it?
Lately, I feel like everyone has the answers to these questions and they have figured everything out. I see pictures of people in their graduation gowns, and I start to feel like... I'm behind. I'm behind in growing up. And when I work on growing up, I hate growing up even more. When do things fall into place?
At the same time, lately, I have become comforted by the simpler things in life. The kitten, the city, the boyfriend... they have simple ways of making me happy.
I don't know. Venting on this thing is even harder now that I don't do it very often. Whats new with everyone out there is the emo-LJ world?
I live in Chicago. I've been dating Danny now for almost 6 months. We have a kitten, Goblin. I read, take my little online courses, and then sit around in lazy bliss. If there was anyone who use to be interested in my life, they have probably exited out of this page by now, but I'll continue.
I graduate in August. I think, I hope. I only have to take 16 credits this summer. For a girl who usually only takes 12 credits over a period of 18 weeks this may be difficult. Oh well, I'm sick of being an undergraduate.
My biggest issue lately has been balancing. I think that may be the biggest lesson I learned this semester... and I'm not even totally sure I learned it, rather I just became more aware of how much I need it. I have discovered that either I am obsessive over the organization of my life or I have no order whats so ever. I have a "fuck it" or "do your best" attitude, and I never settle for anything inbetween. Is there a way to "fuck it" and "do your best?" If there is, I am surely pursueing it unintentionally.
I can't figure out WHAT to be concerned with. Should I be more worried then I am about money, the future, my weight, my life? or should I be less worried? What should I do about it?
Lately, I feel like everyone has the answers to these questions and they have figured everything out. I see pictures of people in their graduation gowns, and I start to feel like... I'm behind. I'm behind in growing up. And when I work on growing up, I hate growing up even more. When do things fall into place?
At the same time, lately, I have become comforted by the simpler things in life. The kitten, the city, the boyfriend... they have simple ways of making me happy.
I don't know. Venting on this thing is even harder now that I don't do it very often. Whats new with everyone out there is the emo-LJ world?