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Cade and I just went to the UU for our last time here. I stayed in the toddler room with her and then we went up for social hour to say good bye to a few people. So many folks came up and gave me a good-bye hug. It reminded me how loved I am. Now I'm sitting in our nearly-empty house feeling empty myself, almost ready to start again. So many things we take for granted in our lives: our things, our friends, our heated houses, our daily schedules. Do we think our daily back and forth is so important because if we don't, we might not bother? All this stuff we lug back and forth, sell and buy, it all seems a little silly from this perspective. Working so many hours to keep it all contained in a nice safe shell.
I really want to downsize my attitude when we move. I've gotten spoiled and fat, living like things won't ever change. I want to try and look past our possessions and focus on the interactions with people and groups. One of the best parts of life are the relationships we foster. I want to let myself count on other people, and let them expect things from me too. It is so easy to just take care of ourselves, but the gems I remember are when we stay at friend's houses overnight and stretch out our hand and say thank you for helping me when I really needed it. It's really good to help others, and it is easy to do when you have enough. It's harder to accept someone's offer of help and gracefully thank them, knowing it all comes around whether you are the one to return the favor or not.
I really want to downsize my attitude when we move. I've gotten spoiled and fat, living like things won't ever change. I want to try and look past our possessions and focus on the interactions with people and groups. One of the best parts of life are the relationships we foster. I want to let myself count on other people, and let them expect things from me too. It is so easy to just take care of ourselves, but the gems I remember are when we stay at friend's houses overnight and stretch out our hand and say thank you for helping me when I really needed it. It's really good to help others, and it is easy to do when you have enough. It's harder to accept someone's offer of help and gracefully thank them, knowing it all comes around whether you are the one to return the favor or not.