SCHOOLS

Sep 15, 2005 09:47

Richmond-London
Huron-london
Aup
(Aur?-not sure if I want too)
Franklin College-Switzerland

and then for some reason im convinced schools in Canada would be something interesting so Im recieving so much shit from them in the mail at my request.

I was actually considering staying for a year, then I looked around and realized Id probably wind up dropping out to leave anyway
Its only the third week of school...but I love being an AP student, All they talk about is how smart and elite we are, all they give us is all we ask for, mr iopolo & kirsten even bent his rules for us. It gives you a boost after you cant help mimic your fears of not getting anywhere, not finding anyone, not loving who you are and so on.

I looked at my transcript, moving around alot really fucked me over I suppose but whats done is done and you suck it up and get over it and move on to something youve been planning for the last 5 years. or at least what I have. The craziest part? Im not the only one, Caitlin and Mina are coming, theyre applying, so I wont lose part of every world desipte how much id love to at times.

Keeping realistic I do have safety schools here, theyre the ones that If i were forced to spend more than a year at id just stop.

So the stress is building up, what ive planned since i was 13 is nearly here and of course totally debatable and on the verge of unrealistic. Mr tucker told me I shouldnt go abroad because they hate us, I laughed left his office and felt like tearing his hair out. No one ever suggests studying abroad, is it really that fucking foreign of a concept? are people really that fucking scared and uneducated to assume stereotypes like that are plausible reason to avoid something? I calmed down because I knew he was wrong, I know everyone whos ever told me how much they hate us, how Im not getting in, how I should shut up and stop blabbering about it was never there, didnt plan to be there ever if not for a very long time. Travel may not be your thing but its mine and Im not willing to give that up for anyone.

Mr burns told me I was a hardass when I brushed him off next to my locker sobbing. He smiled when he said it and then emailed me everything and told me not to worry about due dates, Robbins and Hess did the same. If you have to be something, Id rather be a callous bitch than a weepy fuck because at least I know then that I can fend for myself. Relying on other people is never as safe as you want it to be.
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