does anyone
Even read this fucking thing anymore? I dont even care anymore. Im just writing to let out my frustrations. I know nothing bad is probably happening but my mind wont let me think otherwise. I wish I knew what was going on, I wish I knew how certain people felt. My heart is hurting so bad right now. I thought being in love was supposed to be a good thing. I feel like Ive been crushed by a steamroller. I am such a good person and I deserve good things. I wait things out, I go out of my way to be extra nice and caring to people. I dont understand why Im always getting shit on. maybe I should just become a fucking cunt or something. Be nasty to everybody and turn the tables. See how everyone else likes it. It fucking hurts. My best friend is moving to Cali in a few months, Ill be a huge fucking wreck when that happens. Not that Im not a wreck as it is. Ew i dont even know what to write anymore, I jsut want to go lay in my bed and punch things and shit like that.