ho hum....
well I'm not sure this is a ideal time to update here...but sense I am loving having the ability to use my new laptop here right on my lap...I am updating...even though I am dead beat tired from workin at the saginaw EXPRESS from noon to close...which happened to be not the normal 10 pm or a lil after....try 11:30 ish...not bad bad just a real long day!
But I'm loving it just playing dress-up really to me...or more or less a challenge...maybe a test in manipulation as sick as that sounds....just to use your people skills to get the sales going ect. SO YA...who-da-thunk I'd be done with college...degree in-hand and working retail...but thats life I'm learning one day at a time - go with things - take what life gives you and make the best of it. Maybe I was meant to help the male and female population of the tri-cities look a bit more stylish! LOL...not serious...but it's not hurting anyone...including Mr. Checkbook!
But ya....all is pretty good on the whole. I lost my Baci on the tenth of this month...thats been the real low as of late. It had been a long battle though and all in all it was the best thing for her...as much as she was in pain and immobile - it wasn't fair just to keep her alive to be put through all that. I really was ever-so thankful that at this point I wasn't busy therefore I was able to spend a lot of time with my Baci and help things get organized along the way, and along that way I was really able to see more about my Baci than I really ever saw. She was no longer in control like she was a lot of her life..you saw you having to depend on others - and this was a struggle for her - she was independent and active. That was the most frusterating thing...she was tough - she could take the pain - but being sentanced to a hospital bed - unable to do anything but rest - without even a desire to watch a program or movie on the tv...or read - it was no longer a quality of life that anyone wishes for themselves or any others. So I was at peace with my Baci - one of the last things she said to me that I was "beautiful" and she was "so happy to see me" and that I was to make sure I come see her again. The day after she started to really fade away...and I was just so happy that in the end before she left us I was able to leave her with my love and well wishes - and vice versa....we knew we were good my Baci and I - my namesake - and I will see her again - and till then I feel safer with her guiding me...along with all those I've lost as well. It meant a lot that I could also share and the Mass for my Baci a poem that she had requested be a part of her obituary. It was meaningful to her - and in that it was a message to all those there who loved her - and I was able to be that messenger : )
I've learned a lot these past couple months...about me - those around me - about life - and I think I'm the stronger, smarter, and better be far than I was before!
Caio bella/o s
But I'm loving it just playing dress-up really to me...or more or less a challenge...maybe a test in manipulation as sick as that sounds....just to use your people skills to get the sales going ect. SO YA...who-da-thunk I'd be done with college...degree in-hand and working retail...but thats life I'm learning one day at a time - go with things - take what life gives you and make the best of it. Maybe I was meant to help the male and female population of the tri-cities look a bit more stylish! LOL...not serious...but it's not hurting anyone...including Mr. Checkbook!
But ya....all is pretty good on the whole. I lost my Baci on the tenth of this month...thats been the real low as of late. It had been a long battle though and all in all it was the best thing for her...as much as she was in pain and immobile - it wasn't fair just to keep her alive to be put through all that. I really was ever-so thankful that at this point I wasn't busy therefore I was able to spend a lot of time with my Baci and help things get organized along the way, and along that way I was really able to see more about my Baci than I really ever saw. She was no longer in control like she was a lot of her life..you saw you having to depend on others - and this was a struggle for her - she was independent and active. That was the most frusterating thing...she was tough - she could take the pain - but being sentanced to a hospital bed - unable to do anything but rest - without even a desire to watch a program or movie on the tv...or read - it was no longer a quality of life that anyone wishes for themselves or any others. So I was at peace with my Baci - one of the last things she said to me that I was "beautiful" and she was "so happy to see me" and that I was to make sure I come see her again. The day after she started to really fade away...and I was just so happy that in the end before she left us I was able to leave her with my love and well wishes - and vice versa....we knew we were good my Baci and I - my namesake - and I will see her again - and till then I feel safer with her guiding me...along with all those I've lost as well. It meant a lot that I could also share and the Mass for my Baci a poem that she had requested be a part of her obituary. It was meaningful to her - and in that it was a message to all those there who loved her - and I was able to be that messenger : )
I've learned a lot these past couple months...about me - those around me - about life - and I think I'm the stronger, smarter, and better be far than I was before!
Caio bella/o s