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WOW That's the only word I can think of to describe the way I feel. And that doesn't even cover it. How can you be feeling confused, amazed, disapointed, loved, hated, envyed, envious, all at the same time? That's the way you make me feel. All the time. When ever I'm around you and I don't know how to interpret it. Should I feel amazed? or should I be disapointed? I don't know. How do you feel?Cause one minute I think you feel the same way then the next I have no idea. I'm tired of the games but I can't get over it. I don't know how to walk away from something that's made me feel this way. It's a hell of a lot harder than I EVER thought it would be. I don't know what to call what I'm feeling. Everyone tells me that its not worth it, It's a waste of time. But it seems worth it to me. I don't think I'm wasting my time, but maybe I'm wasting his. Maybe I should just forget about. I just don't know anymore. I'M DONE! I don't want to be done but I kn ow that until things change I HAVE to be done. I can't do it anymore. Right now its not right. I don't know if it will ever be right but no matter how much I want it to be right it's not. And its hard but I HAVE to be DONE. Someone's going to get hurt if I'm not. and It'll probably be me or someone that doesn't deserve to get hurt. I'm sorry. I wish I could go back and change things. Make it so this never happened but I can't and I'm sorry.
Dyanna-thanks for always being there for me....i don't know where id be with out you. i love you more than you'll ever know!! Thanks. i don't tell you that enough
Thanks to every one else thats been there for me through everything. you know who you are. and i love you all