So long 2011...
Wooo
It's been quite a while...
I have been busy working, working and working more.
I've spent a year at this big, one of the biggest they say, communication agency... What did I do? I just threw myself into the wild to see what happened... I always wanted a difficult area, competitive people to work with, intelligent women, women I could look up to.
Well I met a few (who i'm totally grateful too!), but I mainly met the evil. The evil disguised in highly educated "proper" asses. Sorry for that.
I gave myself to that company, entirely, in a naive way that everybody found very touching and fuck they had to admit I did work a lot. But I gave myself in the same way that I gave myself to that guy, careless, without protecting myself and thinking about how I could feel, in what state I would end when it would all be finished...
I ended unemployed and single... but let's not stop there :)
2011 was the year of the blind fight, me being all full of courage and will, throwing my little too much of energy at the "blazé" people in front of me... I have to admit I gave to much, and the worst is I think I could have given less for more results.... Well well.
I hope that 2012 will be the year of me giving a lot again, because I'm far far from having reached my aim... But the lesson I'll try and remember is I'll try and not forget myself in the journey.
There are a lot of other things than working I could like to do, just if I try them... cook?! Yes even I could like cooking. Gym? Well I've subscribed, let's hope I'll go.
I think I've fixed my problem of choosing the wrong friends... I honestly think all my friends are fantastic, they all have something unusual and I just love them... (and I think they love me...)
But there is another issue I have to fix. So far I haven't been able to choose the right guys... Either they fall in love, but I don't. Or I fall in love, but they're unavailable... or I fall in love and they're just fucking me... Well well, I promess that 2012 will be the year of me trying hard to choose the right ones. That being said, let's see what happens!
So I am now, at the very beginning of a new year, trying to take care of my life, as if it is a little child, because fuck we only got one chance!! I still have issues to wake up in the morning, but I worked so hard last year I can hardly feel guilty about it (although I still do).
So that's my resolutions for the new year, try and take care of myself, I'm a valuable person, who deserves a nice life, a nice job, a nice man in my bed and heart, and all the rest will just follow...
Surprise!!!
It's been quite a while...
I have been busy working, working and working more.
I've spent a year at this big, one of the biggest they say, communication agency... What did I do? I just threw myself into the wild to see what happened... I always wanted a difficult area, competitive people to work with, intelligent women, women I could look up to.
Well I met a few (who i'm totally grateful too!), but I mainly met the evil. The evil disguised in highly educated "proper" asses. Sorry for that.
I gave myself to that company, entirely, in a naive way that everybody found very touching and fuck they had to admit I did work a lot. But I gave myself in the same way that I gave myself to that guy, careless, without protecting myself and thinking about how I could feel, in what state I would end when it would all be finished...
I ended unemployed and single... but let's not stop there :)
2011 was the year of the blind fight, me being all full of courage and will, throwing my little too much of energy at the "blazé" people in front of me... I have to admit I gave to much, and the worst is I think I could have given less for more results.... Well well.
I hope that 2012 will be the year of me giving a lot again, because I'm far far from having reached my aim... But the lesson I'll try and remember is I'll try and not forget myself in the journey.
There are a lot of other things than working I could like to do, just if I try them... cook?! Yes even I could like cooking. Gym? Well I've subscribed, let's hope I'll go.
I think I've fixed my problem of choosing the wrong friends... I honestly think all my friends are fantastic, they all have something unusual and I just love them... (and I think they love me...)
But there is another issue I have to fix. So far I haven't been able to choose the right guys... Either they fall in love, but I don't. Or I fall in love, but they're unavailable... or I fall in love and they're just fucking me... Well well, I promess that 2012 will be the year of me trying hard to choose the right ones. That being said, let's see what happens!
So I am now, at the very beginning of a new year, trying to take care of my life, as if it is a little child, because fuck we only got one chance!! I still have issues to wake up in the morning, but I worked so hard last year I can hardly feel guilty about it (although I still do).
So that's my resolutions for the new year, try and take care of myself, I'm a valuable person, who deserves a nice life, a nice job, a nice man in my bed and heart, and all the rest will just follow...
Surprise!!!