First time writing my thoughts in a while
I am hoping this process helps me sort though the shit running through my brain.
I have felt off kilter a little lately. I can't exactly put my finger on it. It's not a "problem," at least I don't think so. That would imply there is something wrong and there really isn't. There is stress at work but I don't think that is it. I just don't really care about my job anymore. Then again, maybe I know exactly what it is.
Which brings me to my next point. I always want the impossible. I am starting to wonder if it's me wanting to make the impossible happen and then being able to say I made it work. I guess a part of it is I don't like the idea that there is something that is out of reach for me. Then the realistic part of me knows that there are just some things you can't have, some things you will never be able to do.
I have been going to clubs lately, I had forgotten how much fun I have when I go. Even if it's not exactly the best night, even when the music isn't exactly what I want to hear. Plus dancing is damn good exercise. This week I went to Ceremony on Monday night and I am going to Xmortis on Friday night. It's a little tiring being out until 1:30am and then going to work but it's worth it. Once I go back to school I doubt I will have the time to do this stuff.
LARP season is coming up. I am excited about all of it. S&C, Terres and the new addition of Legends. I am pretty pumped actually to be staffing Legends, I am pretty sure it's going to be a hell of a time and Shannon, Steve and Tom have got me excited at the possibility of having a face character possibility. I don't mind crunching a bit, it's part of staffing, but it's just not where my heart is.
This post is sort of all over the place, then again it's been a long time since I wrote anything down so I guess it should be expected. I think this sums up my life at the moment. More or less.
I have felt off kilter a little lately. I can't exactly put my finger on it. It's not a "problem," at least I don't think so. That would imply there is something wrong and there really isn't. There is stress at work but I don't think that is it. I just don't really care about my job anymore. Then again, maybe I know exactly what it is.
Which brings me to my next point. I always want the impossible. I am starting to wonder if it's me wanting to make the impossible happen and then being able to say I made it work. I guess a part of it is I don't like the idea that there is something that is out of reach for me. Then the realistic part of me knows that there are just some things you can't have, some things you will never be able to do.
I have been going to clubs lately, I had forgotten how much fun I have when I go. Even if it's not exactly the best night, even when the music isn't exactly what I want to hear. Plus dancing is damn good exercise. This week I went to Ceremony on Monday night and I am going to Xmortis on Friday night. It's a little tiring being out until 1:30am and then going to work but it's worth it. Once I go back to school I doubt I will have the time to do this stuff.
LARP season is coming up. I am excited about all of it. S&C, Terres and the new addition of Legends. I am pretty pumped actually to be staffing Legends, I am pretty sure it's going to be a hell of a time and Shannon, Steve and Tom have got me excited at the possibility of having a face character possibility. I don't mind crunching a bit, it's part of staffing, but it's just not where my heart is.
This post is sort of all over the place, then again it's been a long time since I wrote anything down so I guess it should be expected. I think this sums up my life at the moment. More or less.