finding faith
so yea i've been having well realizations about stuff- my past has come baq to haunt me one to many times- and its handicapping the development of my future- ppl places situations- i need to let it go- and it gets harder every time- i've developed this secure group of people i can rely on - one if family and the rest are mostly ppl i should have no contact w/- and amongst them there is trouble- insecurites in my safe haven - its getting harder to trust but thats what im reaching for- someone and something i can trust in - something deeper-but each time something goes wrong i tred a baq to shallow water-this finding something more and deeper is getting harder- its like a two steps forward one step baq kinda deal- i pray for some faith and some hope to be restored-im loosing it and i need it- i ll be typing up some new material within the next couple a days- keep reading its pretty sweet- xoxo- ltr