Old Friends
So Shaun has barely talked to me in almost a week. It's been pissing me off b/c I know he has been outright ignoring me. I know there's been a lot of times he has been online and just ignored me. I know why this is happening too. It's always the same thing...the saaame fucking pattern. He's most likely very into fucking some girl right now and does not have the time or maybe even the will to spend time talking to me right now, which is unfair and kinda mean. I'm sure he doesn't shut out all his other friends when this shit goes on.
I never even got to talk to him about what I wanted to before. Basically it boils down to this. I can't take his dumb games anymore. He comes here and totally fucks w my head. Tells me to say I'm his sister and says wouldn't it be weird to have sex b/c we've known each other for so long? Then he tries to molest me and touch my pussy and ask to sleep in my bed. It's like pick one. U don't want me, u do want me. Then he goes back to TX and plays the I'm glad we didn't fuck card, we r just friends. Then months later he's like I wish we had fucked, I love u, miss u, I wanted u to cuddle w me, etc. Like WTF is ur problem!!!??? What r u Dr. Jeckel and My. Hyde????
Then a few times he gets all weird on me and is like i just don't know anymore...whatever that means. What r u gonna break up w me? We're just friends! Then he says he's joking about that, but when ppl joke there is something underneath it all that is really true. Then he's a fucking prick and sends me pics of the same chick over and over like it was an accident. Back and forth, back and forth. All these games. None of which I deserve to be put through. I have been friends w Shaun since I was 15 years old....I don't deserve this treatment. What is wrong with you??? This friendship is fucking unhealthy. I dunno why it's so hard to stop being friends then. What does this friendship provide that we can't get in other places? I dunno. It definitely provides plenty of bullshit though. I don't deserve this.
To top it all off, Kim wants me to go to Texas w her. Her little sister's cheerleading team won this competition in Japan that was against allll of Asia. Now they're coming to compeat in Dallas for nationals or some shit I dunno. But Kim wants me to go, and I've been wanting to tell Shaun, cuz silly me I though hey maybe he'd want to chill w me. Apparently though he doesn't even have the time for me to tell him this. Now I'm not going to fucking tell him about it. If he doesn't care, than I don't care. I blocked him. I was sick and tired of seeing his screen name online and hearing no word from him.
I took a vow that from now, I'm gonna be my own best friend.
I never even got to talk to him about what I wanted to before. Basically it boils down to this. I can't take his dumb games anymore. He comes here and totally fucks w my head. Tells me to say I'm his sister and says wouldn't it be weird to have sex b/c we've known each other for so long? Then he tries to molest me and touch my pussy and ask to sleep in my bed. It's like pick one. U don't want me, u do want me. Then he goes back to TX and plays the I'm glad we didn't fuck card, we r just friends. Then months later he's like I wish we had fucked, I love u, miss u, I wanted u to cuddle w me, etc. Like WTF is ur problem!!!??? What r u Dr. Jeckel and My. Hyde????
Then a few times he gets all weird on me and is like i just don't know anymore...whatever that means. What r u gonna break up w me? We're just friends! Then he says he's joking about that, but when ppl joke there is something underneath it all that is really true. Then he's a fucking prick and sends me pics of the same chick over and over like it was an accident. Back and forth, back and forth. All these games. None of which I deserve to be put through. I have been friends w Shaun since I was 15 years old....I don't deserve this treatment. What is wrong with you??? This friendship is fucking unhealthy. I dunno why it's so hard to stop being friends then. What does this friendship provide that we can't get in other places? I dunno. It definitely provides plenty of bullshit though. I don't deserve this.
To top it all off, Kim wants me to go to Texas w her. Her little sister's cheerleading team won this competition in Japan that was against allll of Asia. Now they're coming to compeat in Dallas for nationals or some shit I dunno. But Kim wants me to go, and I've been wanting to tell Shaun, cuz silly me I though hey maybe he'd want to chill w me. Apparently though he doesn't even have the time for me to tell him this. Now I'm not going to fucking tell him about it. If he doesn't care, than I don't care. I blocked him. I was sick and tired of seeing his screen name online and hearing no word from him.
I took a vow that from now, I'm gonna be my own best friend.