"here it comes...a better version of me"

[fragilemachine]

good news:I got an easle today, and had girl time with my lady Erin, who has saved me more times than I can say. we sang our hearts out last night and It's never felt better. we went for coffee and played checkers, then to the new bed bath and beyond where we swing danced to sample music, and had a yum lunch, I told the waitress it was erins birthday...she got embarressed by the obnoxious waitresses clapping and singing loudly, but we got free cake.
Erin and my dog are the only good things that came out of this shit town, which makes me feel I didn't waste three years here.

Bad news:Shawn and I are never speaking again, he stayed at my house for a week and went crazy on me yet again.
he says he loves me but he is too imature and insecure to the point he makes up elaberate things that don't even happen, which causes us to fight. he has this notion that I'm using him. ha. I'm sad it's over because he is an amazing man dispite his problems...he is smart, cute, and passionate, and has great taste in movies and music.
I love him so much, but I don't deserve to be verbally abused.

I have a new found life and love for it ahead of me and nothing can stop me now.

I will live, and I will rid myself of anything or anyone who makes it an un-happy experience.

I am a new and improved woman, but still the same where it counts.

so smile for me.

<3