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so life's not so great right now. i can't stand my mother, our relationship has just gone downhill ever since me and kevin broke up. regardless of how much i love her, there's this huge wall between us now and i don't think it'll ever get better. i'd love to move out, but where would i go? im only 16 and i dont want to live with my dad, so that leaves what? welfare? maybe if i get desperate enough. i cut like crazy last night. it's been a while since i've done that. tom's toxic to me. and then my mom was bitching cause mat's mom called her and my mom got her story fucked up, even though i tried to talk to her about what was really happening. but mat was a sweetheart. he got his mom to call my mom and straigthen everything out. i fucking love that guy. he's so sweet. i want him to be here so badly. who would have thought i'd end up falling in love with the boy who never talked to me in grade nine? but i did, and i wish it had happened sooner. im going with him to get a piercing :D. i think it'll be my nipple cause mc donalds is fucking retarded and is bitching about my tongue ring, a piercing you can't even see. i'm going to apply for other jobs, cause they're getting really retarded.
+ tears come streaming down your face +
~ allie