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it's 10:42 am and i got back from lyssa's at 10ish. she's in deep shit cause we sneaked out and as we were walking back towards her house her mom comes running out. reminds me of when i ran away... now im sad. nothing's ever good enough to make me truly happy cept from lyssa and mat. i dunno why the fuck i can't be happy, and i dunno why i keep making these lame attempts to try to find something so i can be. maybe im just in a bad mood cause mat's gone... i dunno. at the park scott refered to him as my ' fuck buddy'. i hope to god thats not what mat wants to be cause i want him for so much more. i hope lyssa's ok and that w/e her mom says, doesn't suck to much. but knowing life, it probably will. i want mat. anyways, i gtg drive my kitten to get his shot.
| remember the day we met? you told me this gets harder... well it did. |
~ allie