A Little End
I know, I'm only posting this for myself. So later, I can go back a read it, and perhaps, I'll comment on myself. I haven't been feeling very good lately. I've been sad, I've been very alone. None of the people I expect to be there for me, have been, and people who I wouldn't expect, have jumped right up, and been amazing. People I haven't seen in over 10 years, people who I've never met in real life. Amazing.
I feel a bit neglected, and yeah, I am selfish from time to time, believe it or not. I like to know that people care, and when I don't feel that, it bothers me. I feel like somedays, since Lightning hockey is over, that all those people I've made friends with through the team, just fall off the face of the earth from me, and it's depressing. I try my very best to be there for people all the time, and I certainly am not perfect at it, but I do try. Maybe I expect too much, or maybe those people weren't really that good of a friend to start with. I have a tendency to see alot of good in people, even when it's not really there. It's one of my downfalls.
My Darling Ruslan has officially been sent away from The Lightning. That is depressing also. I saw some things when I was in Atlanta, that gave me a heads up about him leaving, but I really just hoped, that it would smooth itself out. There are few, VERY few guys who play for The Lightning, who are nicer than Ruslan. Ruslan has a heart of gold, and ALWAYS had a smile on his face for you. He tolerated me very well, and I just adored him, for years and years. I will miss you deeply Ruslan, my red faced little cherub. I hope you find a new, warm, loving home, with a team that treats you well, and allows you to be the best you can be. I love you.
Evgeny Artyukhin, my sweet Russian. If you come back here, I will pity you. You were supposed to go "rot in Russia", if you recall. As much as I would love to have you back, I would rather know you are emotionally sound, playing in your homeland.
MD. If I never see you again, I hope you know how much I truly enjoyed your presence here. No matter what they say, you are amazing. I will look forward to seeing you play your heart out on another team. I'll see you soon.
Brad Richards. Though you had a bit of a down season, I'm almost sure you'll come back next year. We can't trade you, so you better come back with a vengence! Thanks for your moments of making my sister smile, and feel amazing inside. Here's to more of that next year, too!
MSL. Thanks for being awesome, and mostly playing on a line with Vinny4, and helping him to his career best, 52 goals.
Affy. Have a blast in Philly, with my favorite Marty Biron! You're going to be great!
Nikita Alexeev. Chicago is pretty far from here. You were one of the very first players I ever met. Seems like so long ago. You've always been a favorite of mine. I hope you have a great time playing with Chicago. You'll help Nik and Havlat make that team amazing!!
Luke Richardson. Thank you. For everything. I hope you stick around, in a coaching manner, cause I'd love to see you again.
SB- You are everything. I can never say how much I miss you, words are just not enough. I wish I could thank you for what you gave, while you were here, and when you came back in Feb. You never, never let me down. You're always there, with a smile, picking up my soul, and reminding me, there's so much to live for. I love you. "You're Forever Now"
VL- My Heart of hearts. I'll make it short. You are amazing. Your 52 goals, are but a start, to the incredible years ahead of you. I always believed in what you are. I always will. You. You're the one. "I do worry" I worry too.
To all the amazing players I have had the pleasure of meeting this year, thank you for being so wonderful....mostly...my horizons have so been widened past Tampa Bay. Thank you Pittsburgh, PA for making me fall in love with you! A beautiful and amazing city, especially snow covered! Thank you Penguins, for making me fall for you, also. Sidney, Bugsy, Army, Flower, and my beautiful GRONK!! I LOVE YOU!! Thank you Buffalo Sabres, for making Center Ice completely worth the money!! Thank you Sabres players, for taking the time to make March 16th, one of the best days of my hockey life!! Daniel Briere, you're amazing!! Thank You Brian Campbell, Chris Drury, Andrew Peters, Jason Pominville, Thomas Vanek, Henrik Tallinder, Jochen Hecht, Drew Stafford, Ryan Miller, Ty Conklin, Mike Ryan, Max Afiniogenov, Ales Kotalik, and Lindy Ruff. Thank you Carolina Hurricanes. I hated you last year when you stole The Cup from us, but I've grown to love you this year, mostly due to your aquisition of my baby John Grahame. Eric Staal, Camo, Willie, Eric Cole, Grahamie. I love you all, and thank you so much for your time. Thank you San Jose Sharks, especially Jonathan Cheechoo and Joe Thornton. You're both amazing, and such wonderful people, thanks for allowing me those small moments to see. Thank you Evgeni Nabokov, for being SWEET when it meant the most!! Thank you Pavel Kubina, for the moment you made me feel so amazing when you were here with Toronto on November 1. I miss you. Thank you Ben Clymer, for making my night on November 28, with The Caps. My Darling Alexander, One day, I'm going to meet you, and there's going to be sparks. Marty Biron, I am dying to meet you!!! Know you are loved by many!! Thank you LA Kings. You're about to be AMAZING!!!
Here's to September and a beautiful training camp.
GO SABRES!! SILENCE THE HATERS!!!