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The night before last Garrett came over to sleep over.
Somehow we got into the topic of cheating & I revealed to him how I've pretty much cheated on every boyfriend I've ever had. What can I say? I'm a bit too honest for my own good sometimes, but I like it that way. He then replied to my confession, after a few short seconds of silence, by saying "That's something you should probably keep to yourself." Ouch. So then I was worried. I asked him if I scared him by telling him that & he said that I kind of did. I had to reassure him though that my cheating ways are in my past & never would I hurt him like that. Is that what I said to previous ex boyfriends? Well, yeah. BUT! Anyone who knows me knows that the ending of my relationship with Scott was a turning point in my life in which I learned a LOT. I just hope Garrett doesn't judge the person I am now by the stupid mistakes the person I used to be had made. I let him know that I'm not who I once was, & that I'll never again be that person. I've learned my lesson. & I've never been happier for experiencing the things I did with Scott & all my other boyfriends. Yes, it was all hard at the time & sucked a lot, but I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for it all. I like the person I've become. I like that I'll always be thankful for the good relationship I have with Garrett & I'll never take him for granted, ever. I'm much more appreciative of things now. He said I have his trust because I've never done anything to make him second guess that, but once I do, it's gone. I think that's fair enough.
Things are okay, though. We're still very much in like.
Last night I went to Maddi & Sarah's for ANTM & Gossip Girls, but had to leave at the beginning of GG to pick up Garrett from school & bring him to his truck. Then back to the girl's. I came home & he came over. We layed around talking, watching youtube videos, tickling & wrestling, & all the cute gushiness. He confided in me last night a personal secret & I've never felt closer to him. It just made me feel good to know that he trusts me enough to let me in on something like that. I thought it was silly so I just giggled at him, kissed him, & told him it didn't change anything between us. I like him no matter what.
So then I went with him to his apartment & slept over. He had work early this morning & I slightly remember talking to him. & him eating his breakfast while rubbing my head & watching me sleep. Mmmmmm :] I wrote him a note & layed it on his bed before leaving this morning.
Now I'm studying & waiting for him to be done with band practice, so he can come over.
& hanging out with Lindsey. because I freaking love Lindsey.
Oh. I deleted Limewire because it was messing up my computer & that sucks a lot.
Favorite Tyra ANTM quote from last night?
"Never dull your shine for someone else" Awwwww.