FU law offices
I don’t even know why I am typing in here right now.
You know those times in your life where you just feel in a rut? I was in that rut for almost 2 years. Now that I look back upon it I can hardly believe it lasted that long and I still wonder what even caused all my problems. One thing led to another led to another and it just got all out of control. Everything around me was changing… death, love, school. It was all way too much pressure and I ended up doing exactly what I do best, I ran away from it.
But I have finally found the light at the end of the tunnel. I am always amazed with how things turn out and now that I have finally found my bearings again I have learned one all important lesson. Just go with the flow. What really got me into trouble 2 years ago was constantly thinking what tomorrow will bring. Fuck tomorrow and fuck yesterday; it’s today I should be worried about. So now I am just taking life one day at a time and it is working out great so far.
Before I began taking finals in May I decided to make a sort of list of things I want in my life. It began really grandiose with ridiculous goals like finding the girl of my dreams, figuring out what field of law I want to practice, getting a research assistantship etc. After a few days of thinking about it I decided this was my whole problem to begin with. You come up with these grand schemes that just aren’t that realistic and soon you disappoint yourself. It was then that I thought of Steve’s two goals and I realized those were two things I wanted as well. I finally decided I wanted to boost my GPA up to make myself eligible for research assistantships and I wanted to go on at least one date this summer.
To my complete and utter amazement both things happened on the same day. I remember driving home that night with a huge smile on my face, for the first time in a long time everything just clicked. I had surpassed my own expectations and now nothing can ruin this summer. I am not ignorant though. I know I still face the same problems I had years ago, the problems I ran away from. But this is certainly a step in the right direction and I feel very content about life as a whole right now.
I cannot thank those who have been there for me enough.
On a side note I started my job a couple weeks ago and that is going great so far. Honestly I was upset the first day, it seemed almost like busy work. As the weeks have gone on I see how important some of the work I do is and I am getting an idea of what the legal profession is really like. Perhaps the largest adjustment has been trying to force any compassion out of my mind. The other day I was typing up something that I knew was going to absolutely ruin someone’s day. People, perhaps suffering real pain and my job is to get them as little money as possible. And I am the hero of the day if I can find a legal loophole to make an injured party lose any chance at recovering for their loss. Lol, that sounds really bad when I write it all down. Shame that some people try to screw the insurance companies making it that much harder for people with legitimate claims to get what they really deserve. But I am learning a lot and it is great experience.
I just can’t get over how everything is just working out. Maybe I was just really depressed or pessimistic before. I don’t understand why I thought it would be so hard to get to this point in my life again. And it seems like every day something new happens that just blows my mind. I feel pretty chill about everything.
And now a quote from my boss:
“Have you seen her ass? WABAM!”
You know those times in your life where you just feel in a rut? I was in that rut for almost 2 years. Now that I look back upon it I can hardly believe it lasted that long and I still wonder what even caused all my problems. One thing led to another led to another and it just got all out of control. Everything around me was changing… death, love, school. It was all way too much pressure and I ended up doing exactly what I do best, I ran away from it.
But I have finally found the light at the end of the tunnel. I am always amazed with how things turn out and now that I have finally found my bearings again I have learned one all important lesson. Just go with the flow. What really got me into trouble 2 years ago was constantly thinking what tomorrow will bring. Fuck tomorrow and fuck yesterday; it’s today I should be worried about. So now I am just taking life one day at a time and it is working out great so far.
Before I began taking finals in May I decided to make a sort of list of things I want in my life. It began really grandiose with ridiculous goals like finding the girl of my dreams, figuring out what field of law I want to practice, getting a research assistantship etc. After a few days of thinking about it I decided this was my whole problem to begin with. You come up with these grand schemes that just aren’t that realistic and soon you disappoint yourself. It was then that I thought of Steve’s two goals and I realized those were two things I wanted as well. I finally decided I wanted to boost my GPA up to make myself eligible for research assistantships and I wanted to go on at least one date this summer.
To my complete and utter amazement both things happened on the same day. I remember driving home that night with a huge smile on my face, for the first time in a long time everything just clicked. I had surpassed my own expectations and now nothing can ruin this summer. I am not ignorant though. I know I still face the same problems I had years ago, the problems I ran away from. But this is certainly a step in the right direction and I feel very content about life as a whole right now.
I cannot thank those who have been there for me enough.
On a side note I started my job a couple weeks ago and that is going great so far. Honestly I was upset the first day, it seemed almost like busy work. As the weeks have gone on I see how important some of the work I do is and I am getting an idea of what the legal profession is really like. Perhaps the largest adjustment has been trying to force any compassion out of my mind. The other day I was typing up something that I knew was going to absolutely ruin someone’s day. People, perhaps suffering real pain and my job is to get them as little money as possible. And I am the hero of the day if I can find a legal loophole to make an injured party lose any chance at recovering for their loss. Lol, that sounds really bad when I write it all down. Shame that some people try to screw the insurance companies making it that much harder for people with legitimate claims to get what they really deserve. But I am learning a lot and it is great experience.
I just can’t get over how everything is just working out. Maybe I was just really depressed or pessimistic before. I don’t understand why I thought it would be so hard to get to this point in my life again. And it seems like every day something new happens that just blows my mind. I feel pretty chill about everything.
And now a quote from my boss:
“Have you seen her ass? WABAM!”