Just an update...
Sorry it has been so long since I have updated but a lot has been going on in my life. I am now the office manager where I work... so I have a whole more responsibility, but a bigger paycheck. Shaun and I are still together. My Grandmother (that I live with) died Saturday night. It was a big shock. She went to the doctor for a check up last Wednesday and they admitted her to the hospital for some tests to be run, they found out she had 80% blockage in one artery and very little in the other artery. So they did a heart catherization and put in a stint. They told us she would be just fine and everything went well. I talk to her Friday and told her I would see her Saturday. So I stayed home on Saturday and cleaned up the house and finished some projects I had due for school. Then at about 9:30 Saturday night my uncle called me and told me she had had a heart attack. So my parents and I rush down to the hospital. But then they have moved her to ICU and my entire family is waiting in the "consultation room". The doctor comes and says he doesn't expect her to make it through the next few minutes. Twenty minutes later they come in and tell us she didn't make it. I just don't understand how she can fine on minute and gone the next. I guess that just shows us how fragile life really is. I still expect to walk in the door and see her standing in the kitchen or sitting in "her" recliner watching something on television. But I know I will never see her do that anymore. She will never be here when I get off work and come in the door. She will never be here to give advice on whatever is going on in my life. She was the one person that I talked to about pretty much everything... and I don't have that anymore. I believe I would be able to handle this if I expected it to happen... but I didn't expect it. I was ready for her to come home... but she never did. Does it get any easier? And why has her death affected me more than when my grandfather died when I was 12? I just understand things sometimes. I know that she isn't hurting anymore and she is eternally happy. But why can't she be eternally happy here? I just don't understand the cycle of life sometimes. And to make things a little harder Saturady, January 7, 2006 was my little cousin Katherine's first birthday. My "Granny" got to know her little granddaughter for a year... and my little cousin won't remember her "Granny". I will make sure she knows just how much she loved her as she grows up but she won't have any memories of her like the rest of us will. Sometimes life takes you by surprise. So guys one word of advice... Don't waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them... don't take advantage of the fact that they are there on a daily basis, because one day they won't be there anymore.