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yesterday i found myself smacked in the face with things i just didnt want to see. i couldnt get into art, wich i was origionally thinking would be the ideal subject to clash, but it wasnt. as a result i cud only try get into geo, which, i thought, well, it seems ok ish, not what i expected but it'll do. BUT NOOO i need 15 credits in english to get into geo. so i had to find something else. and the only other subject there was, was Legal studies!!!! WTF!!!! i dont even know what that is about, and i was told it had something to do with essays, so i kjnow im going to fail it, and i can only get 18 credits in it. but thats not all, i got in trouble with ncea for writing notes in my answer booklets, long story, but anywho, they withheld some of my test papers, and as a result i couldnt get into calc, but thats not so much a problem for me, its just the end of the world for my dad thats all, so hes been naging me for ages.
ncea also sent me another letter saying how they are going to decide my punishment in march. in march!!!! far too late for me to get my subjects fixed. and mr. jolly was like, we need to have a serious talk next week. and i realy dont get it, i usually wrote notes in my answer booklets in internals, but they never said anything was wrong with it. i didnt even click to think that it was against the rules, i mean, its sdo obvious now, but at the time and all that stress there just wasnt the time to think about that. i cant help but be crushed by it all. i seriously think this is going to be the worst year of school ever, and it being the last too. i just feel so.... i cant even find the words to explain it. it hurts my chest just to think about all this, trying to find ways out is just too painfull, i can only recall it, i cant fix it. i have to do something and i just dont know what.
if u miss understand me or something just ask me in person, theres just so much shit going on i cant strign it all together properly. im sorry for wasting ur time.
ncea also sent me another letter saying how they are going to decide my punishment in march. in march!!!! far too late for me to get my subjects fixed. and mr. jolly was like, we need to have a serious talk next week. and i realy dont get it, i usually wrote notes in my answer booklets in internals, but they never said anything was wrong with it. i didnt even click to think that it was against the rules, i mean, its sdo obvious now, but at the time and all that stress there just wasnt the time to think about that. i cant help but be crushed by it all. i seriously think this is going to be the worst year of school ever, and it being the last too. i just feel so.... i cant even find the words to explain it. it hurts my chest just to think about all this, trying to find ways out is just too painfull, i can only recall it, i cant fix it. i have to do something and i just dont know what.
if u miss understand me or something just ask me in person, theres just so much shit going on i cant strign it all together properly. im sorry for wasting ur time.