Pictures make me sad
you know, I just realized that pageant is over. I mean the time i spend with the people i really cherish being with is over. yea there will be pageant next year but as far as all the people i look up to most, they will all be gone. Deanna's leaving for college, Charlie is joining the Navy, Jason is off to college as well, Emily's going to college and Megan is leaving too. I know its a bit weird that I'm just now realizing that its over it did end like a month ago.but it just now kicked me in the butt! i was looking at some pictures of me and Deanna and Summer in costume and a picture of Charlie and i suddenly felt as though i was going to cry. I guess it hit me that deanna and charlie would never be in costume ever again,well not until there out of college and the navy and who knows if they really will come back to FBC, it saddens me! Someone needs to make me happy at church tomorrow maybe I'll talk to Carmen or Summer about it, i wonder. Its not like I could talk to it with any of my friends at school, its just, i don't know i can't really be myself around them anymore, you know, I guess I'm really sick of everyone at school in general. Everyone needs to pray that I can go to WA next year. I could go to douglas and be with Tori but it will be her senior year next year anyway. I don't know, I need someone to cheer me up!