Progress?
--I am stepping back while she is her own person(something those who know me realize is a big step for me) and she will respect our relationship. So, she can do whatever she wants other than mess around with other people(not that that has even ever been an issue). So, this is a learning experience for me. I hope it is positive for her as well.
--Her job is changing now, hopefully that means less stress on her. She toys with the thought of going to Denny's and I wonder if that would not be a positive change. Her life though.
--My life needs work, really. I go weeks without a word to people I consider my friends here and that is not right. I do nothing for fun anymore, nothing for myself and I made it that way. I am a controlling bastard and the more I do it the more I limit myself to be some stupid sort of example as well. Sometimes the thought pops into my head that maybe I need to be the kid I never was. I mean, I am twenty-one and I think only in terms of absolutes and eternities. There are parts of that I like about myself, but if I do not let loose, no one around me will be able to. That will get to sucking very quickly. I need to make myself just responsible for myself for a while. Hopefully that will bring me the insight to not keep crushing relationships in my iron grip.
--Her job is changing now, hopefully that means less stress on her. She toys with the thought of going to Denny's and I wonder if that would not be a positive change. Her life though.
--My life needs work, really. I go weeks without a word to people I consider my friends here and that is not right. I do nothing for fun anymore, nothing for myself and I made it that way. I am a controlling bastard and the more I do it the more I limit myself to be some stupid sort of example as well. Sometimes the thought pops into my head that maybe I need to be the kid I never was. I mean, I am twenty-one and I think only in terms of absolutes and eternities. There are parts of that I like about myself, but if I do not let loose, no one around me will be able to. That will get to sucking very quickly. I need to make myself just responsible for myself for a while. Hopefully that will bring me the insight to not keep crushing relationships in my iron grip.