"ooh, girl...shock me like an electric eel...baby girl...turn me on with your electric feel "
so duran is drunk again for the last time in a long while. moving in with dad I think is gonna break me of my constant drinking. god-willing and the river don't rise, that is. I'm not using the word "alcoholic" anymore, I've noticed it has too many wrong attachments to it and stuff.
After watching "Avatar" again for what I think may have been the fiftieth time, I've decided once I get to Oregon, I'm going to strip myself of extremism, and find a way to reconnect with mother earth...or something like that....go proper vegetarian and stuff....I dunno....gotta admit, I wudn't mind a hit of acid or mescaline atm....I do, I just really miss that connection, that feeling to something higher that was immediate... I didn't need a girl or woman in my life, I had lots of friends, and they all loved me, and I loved them, and it was no big deal because I had father sun and mother earth...or maybe I'm still just a hippie in denial?
I've had LOOOTS of Wild Turkey tonight...eske batha to the gaelic brothers ;)
I'm letting the beard grow out again
maybe as a feeling of rebellion, and maybe as just...some kind of clinging to aesthetics...dunno just yet...
Can't WAIT to give tower my 2-week fucking notice! such a miserable company, how typical, the main source of gain revolves around petrolium!
still
a few times here and there I get lonely
it's that want for connection, ya know?
Like yeah, it sounds cheesy, because I connect with people constantly, I LOVE people...they're so interesting! they have like wants and needs and hates and loves and little agendas that they try to figure out and stuff....and I just can't full 100% connect...like I feel as an observer...maybe it's the autism speaking in me...but every once in awhile, I want something a little more than just an observant feeling. And obviousley "on-line relationships" are not the fucking answrr.
maybe I jsut gotta fiogure something out for myself.
duh :P
After watching "Avatar" again for what I think may have been the fiftieth time, I've decided once I get to Oregon, I'm going to strip myself of extremism, and find a way to reconnect with mother earth...or something like that....go proper vegetarian and stuff....I dunno....gotta admit, I wudn't mind a hit of acid or mescaline atm....I do, I just really miss that connection, that feeling to something higher that was immediate... I didn't need a girl or woman in my life, I had lots of friends, and they all loved me, and I loved them, and it was no big deal because I had father sun and mother earth...or maybe I'm still just a hippie in denial?
I've had LOOOTS of Wild Turkey tonight...eske batha to the gaelic brothers ;)
I'm letting the beard grow out again
maybe as a feeling of rebellion, and maybe as just...some kind of clinging to aesthetics...dunno just yet...
Can't WAIT to give tower my 2-week fucking notice! such a miserable company, how typical, the main source of gain revolves around petrolium!
still
a few times here and there I get lonely
it's that want for connection, ya know?
Like yeah, it sounds cheesy, because I connect with people constantly, I LOVE people...they're so interesting! they have like wants and needs and hates and loves and little agendas that they try to figure out and stuff....and I just can't full 100% connect...like I feel as an observer...maybe it's the autism speaking in me...but every once in awhile, I want something a little more than just an observant feeling. And obviousley "on-line relationships" are not the fucking answrr.
maybe I jsut gotta fiogure something out for myself.
duh :P