oh god...
sigh. i just read and found out one of my best friend's grandparents have passed and gone....and I feel awful. I feel like i should know what to do being I lost my father. Part of me is upset I didn't even know about it. I found out by reading a journal entry. The other part of me feels even more awful for what I was doing during the time he passed. I don't know when he went, but I know when he informed us...and I was busy doing trivial things. I should've been there. Its going to be a long road ahead. I want to call him right now but I know hes probably sleeping and don't want to wake him. I'm speechless. I prayed. I believe he'd pull through. I'm heartbroken. Everything takes me back to the day, and I once again feel desolate. I can't believe hes gone. God....please watch over him. And I pray to find comfort in knowing hes in a better place. Yet, still...I cannot control the tears............once again Im faced with the reality death is so real.....and it kills me. Brian..I am so sorry.