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well. long time no talk mr. live journal. i have so much to say. so much has happend lately that i dunno i guess i didnt write. well lets start off with leah moving to ohio. poor baby. i dont talk to her much anymore and i wish i did. i met this girl named shannon and im falling for her. i dunno what to do tho. we both want eachother but we both know we cant have eachother. i have a gf and she loves penis. so its giving me a big head ache and it sucks. heres an email she sent me this morning:
hey baby
i feel like this is crazy. im prolli even gonna be late for school. if i had the time i`d write u more. but i just wanted to let you know that i cant stop thinking about you already. the moment i woke up i was thinking about you. and i dont know whats going on. i feel like this is insane. ive never been this way before. im so sorry i cant be what u need baby. i wish i could be everything for you. id do anything to make u happy. even if that is watch u be with someone else. im so sorry about everything. i have to work tonight. i`ll be home at about 6:15 your time. i hope i talk to you then... no matter how much it hurts my heart. ;[
i love you baby
<3*`Shannon
cute letters, calls, i dunno the little things count. thought that was a sweet letter. i could say so much more about this situation i have but i dunno i cant sum up into words. i could barely talk to shannon about it. im just like im so confused i dont know what to do right now.
heres a poem that i wrote about it:
Title: Emotions
Confused.
That is what I am
To start all over once again
For at any time it can end
Is it time to begin
Hurt.
This is how i feel
Everything feels so unreal
All the pain does not heal
My life so bad I can't reveal
Love.
This is all I want
All emotions out front
when feelings are easy to hunt
For once, I want to try this stunt.
Emotion.
Anyways. for break i went snowboarding with melissa, and her cousin bethy and bethys husband tom. it was really fun. we were there for 3 days. we went to dodge ridge. it was very nice there. kinda hurt my back on the last run because my bindings got lose and my foot turned.
After that i went to redding to see all my relatives. there was no fights this year considering aunty jojo, jordan, and brianna werent there. it was a missing part of our family tho. Brent asked luise to marry her on new years. she got the biggest ring ever. I got 3 sweatshirts, pair of shoes, PJ's, pants, perfumes, lotions, $285, and the deck for my car (the radio/mp3 thingy). Well thats about it.
hey baby
i feel like this is crazy. im prolli even gonna be late for school. if i had the time i`d write u more. but i just wanted to let you know that i cant stop thinking about you already. the moment i woke up i was thinking about you. and i dont know whats going on. i feel like this is insane. ive never been this way before. im so sorry i cant be what u need baby. i wish i could be everything for you. id do anything to make u happy. even if that is watch u be with someone else. im so sorry about everything. i have to work tonight. i`ll be home at about 6:15 your time. i hope i talk to you then... no matter how much it hurts my heart. ;[
i love you baby
<3*`Shannon
cute letters, calls, i dunno the little things count. thought that was a sweet letter. i could say so much more about this situation i have but i dunno i cant sum up into words. i could barely talk to shannon about it. im just like im so confused i dont know what to do right now.
heres a poem that i wrote about it:
Title: Emotions
Confused.
That is what I am
To start all over once again
For at any time it can end
Is it time to begin
Hurt.
This is how i feel
Everything feels so unreal
All the pain does not heal
My life so bad I can't reveal
Love.
This is all I want
All emotions out front
when feelings are easy to hunt
For once, I want to try this stunt.
Emotion.
Anyways. for break i went snowboarding with melissa, and her cousin bethy and bethys husband tom. it was really fun. we were there for 3 days. we went to dodge ridge. it was very nice there. kinda hurt my back on the last run because my bindings got lose and my foot turned.
After that i went to redding to see all my relatives. there was no fights this year considering aunty jojo, jordan, and brianna werent there. it was a missing part of our family tho. Brent asked luise to marry her on new years. she got the biggest ring ever. I got 3 sweatshirts, pair of shoes, PJ's, pants, perfumes, lotions, $285, and the deck for my car (the radio/mp3 thingy). Well thats about it.