meh
I'm sick of caring... I am sick of showing people that I care... I am sick of giving people everything.. I"m sick of being nice.. I am sick of giving my heart cuz all it does it come back and bite me in the ass.. Is this what I deserve? I wish you understood what you meant to me.. cuz you pretty much mean the world to me. I don't know why I am even stupid enough to let someone or something mean that much to me. I can't deal with this anymore... I just need to stop showing that I care and maybe some day you can realize what you meant to me... and realize that i would do anything to make you happy. i felt so happy just getting compliments from you. now you show absolutely no interest what so ever... i mean i dont even care if i was gonna get to go out with you or not.. but they way you used to be towards me made me feel soo good and to just see it was all bullshit the whole time is what kills me the most. you even told me while you did that that you wouldn't hurt me and shit.. and then look what happens... i just dont get it... this is why i never let myself fall for someone.. cuz i feel of this exact thing happening... and the fact that you put in your myspace profile that you are sick of girls doing that shit to you.. then why would you do it to me? especially probably the one girl that cares about you the most and would probably give the world for you. you wrote "i wish people could just be in my shoes and know how i feel" or whatever you wrote...soo now when i think about it.. i think maybe you kinda put me in your shoes so someone could understand what you are going through...and if that is what it is than thats really fucked up and that bothers me.. i really hope that isnt what is was... i'm trying to think positive about this but its kinda hard considering most things that happen these days are negative in teh first place. i just want you to knwo i'm always gonna be there no matter what... no matter how bad you hurt me or whatever.. nothing i mean NOTHING would ever change that.. i'll always help you as best as i can whenever i can no matter what happens. thats it.. thats all i need to say.