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Another three pics of Cas are up! *hehe* Looking so tiny and thin... Definitely will be plumping them Cas up as much as possible! But given they're so active, I don't think I'll have a problem. Takes a while to catch the crickets, but I just let a bunch loose and Cas eats them when they're close enough. ... Unless they jump around too much. lol But it's SO cute to watch Cas stalking them XD Sorta runs close. Then pauses. Then SO VERY slowly takes another step forward with both forearms, then POUNCES! *hehe* XD It's brilliant!
Already I see such incredible differences between Cas and Frances. Cas pooped a second time in the evening ;) You know what I found Cas doing this evening? Sitting in the water bowl!!! YAY! Not sure if it was my dribbling water into it (via water bottle). Or spraying the walls. Or *hands* if Cas just remembered the water bowl from the petstore/before. Either way, Cas was sitting in the water bowl, tail and back legs in the water, on the edge. Very sweet! Would have taken pics, but seemed so happy and didn't want to disturb.
Cas loves the log. That's tonight's sleeping place tonight. *giggles* I think Cas is just about settled in. Explored and claimed the place as their own! Even saw Cas dart into the cave for a few minutes! :D (just after the bath, in fact)
Went around to my Dad's today. Returned the baking trays I had borrowed from Colleen. Found this Chocolate Chip Cookie Recipe and saw it mention you could freeze the dough for later baking. So I figured I'd do such a think with my other cookies! :) Have dough ready to bake. But a question to my cooking friends - would it work with all sorts of recipes? See, I will need to "translate" into the ingredients we have in Australia. And will likely "dumb down" the recipe. But I love the idea that I can whip up a single tray of cookies without the hassle of using a third of an egg ;) And this way I don't have more cookies than I can reasonably eat!
But I also went around to pick plums. Picked a whole tonne of them \o/ then went and sorted through them into piles - ready to eat; needing to ripen a little longer; might have bugs. I did this in the back yard. In the sun. Umm.... Yeah. So a couple hours ago I was in the bathroom and saw that I have white lines on my back from my bra straps. ARGH! I was not outside for more than a half hours and most of that was among the branches of the tree! Seriously. It makes me so SAD that the Earth is so damaged that you can't spend much time outside without sunscreen. That we burn so quickly so far south.
I was just wondering. Something I'll have to look up. I wonder if it's (also) related to us being so much closer to the sun during the southern hemisphere's summer...
TANGENT to the conversation: An easy way to remember this is that this season is shorter than that for the northern summer's - we have only 28 days in February! ;) The motion due to gravity is faster the closer to an object something is. Explained here in basic layman's terms with a pretty diagram and here on wiki in much greater, CONFUSING detail! It's really not that great a difference, though. So... I think I need to read more about why the "hole" is over the southern pole (as opposed to the northern) instead.
So, yes. Burnt. Not too bad. I think. I dunno. It's not warm to the touch except for a couple round patches just directly over the shoulder blades. ARGH! Another step closer to skin cancer. *frustrated*
I think I also managed to offend Colleen. Went around with the prime reason of homework for my psychology sessions (working on procrastination - using Backwards Planning) and talking about my studies. And Colleen started to tell me that I'm smart - smarter than a lot - and it's a good thing that I'll be working to finish my degree this year and if I apply myself, I should have no problems. But I cut her off. Explained that hearing such things made me feel as though I have other's expectations to live up to. And she asked if maybe she shouldn't say such things in the future and I said, yes please. I suspect she took this badly. As soon after remembered she has more clothes to hang on the line and we did not have many more than a couple words before I left.
But really, this is MY path. I know I haven't had it as bad as some people with the heaping of expectations upon them, but I live in a constant fear of being judged and it cripples me! That's the one thing that stops me from going to see people and speak to people with whom I have few interests in common - conversation always leads back to ME and what am I doing with myself and how goes studies and job hunting and life and EVERYTHING. And even now, most of those people would certainly feel uncomfortable were I to tell them, "Oh, yes. I'm going to see a psychologist and I'm working on my procrastination." Well, if I was able to say just that, but I have issues keeping my mouth shut and things would surely get awkward on someone's behalf.
So, no. I don't want to talk about any SPECIFICS related to that part of my life right now. I need to work through it on my own good time. But you know what? I am making good time! And I know it's a completely different situation and goals and focus, but working with Sara in this short amount of time, I have made leaps and bounds over what I managed with Anthony. Ok, that's not quite right. With Anthony I learnt to really open up and hand over my mind to someone else so that they could pick it apart with me and see how I truly felt about my mother's death. And this was very grueling work. With Sara we are writing problems down and tackling them head one, one at a time. So I've made more changes that I can POINT AT in seven sessions than I did in several years with Anthony.
If I were to suddenly have to pay for my sessions with Sara out of my pocket, I would continue to see her and pay willingly and happily.
Already I see such incredible differences between Cas and Frances. Cas pooped a second time in the evening ;) You know what I found Cas doing this evening? Sitting in the water bowl!!! YAY! Not sure if it was my dribbling water into it (via water bottle). Or spraying the walls. Or *hands* if Cas just remembered the water bowl from the petstore/before. Either way, Cas was sitting in the water bowl, tail and back legs in the water, on the edge. Very sweet! Would have taken pics, but seemed so happy and didn't want to disturb.
Cas loves the log. That's tonight's sleeping place tonight. *giggles* I think Cas is just about settled in. Explored and claimed the place as their own! Even saw Cas dart into the cave for a few minutes! :D (just after the bath, in fact)
Went around to my Dad's today. Returned the baking trays I had borrowed from Colleen. Found this Chocolate Chip Cookie Recipe and saw it mention you could freeze the dough for later baking. So I figured I'd do such a think with my other cookies! :) Have dough ready to bake. But a question to my cooking friends - would it work with all sorts of recipes? See, I will need to "translate" into the ingredients we have in Australia. And will likely "dumb down" the recipe. But I love the idea that I can whip up a single tray of cookies without the hassle of using a third of an egg ;) And this way I don't have more cookies than I can reasonably eat!
But I also went around to pick plums. Picked a whole tonne of them \o/ then went and sorted through them into piles - ready to eat; needing to ripen a little longer; might have bugs. I did this in the back yard. In the sun. Umm.... Yeah. So a couple hours ago I was in the bathroom and saw that I have white lines on my back from my bra straps. ARGH! I was not outside for more than a half hours and most of that was among the branches of the tree! Seriously. It makes me so SAD that the Earth is so damaged that you can't spend much time outside without sunscreen. That we burn so quickly so far south.
I was just wondering. Something I'll have to look up. I wonder if it's (also) related to us being so much closer to the sun during the southern hemisphere's summer...
TANGENT to the conversation: An easy way to remember this is that this season is shorter than that for the northern summer's - we have only 28 days in February! ;) The motion due to gravity is faster the closer to an object something is. Explained here in basic layman's terms with a pretty diagram and here on wiki in much greater, CONFUSING detail! It's really not that great a difference, though. So... I think I need to read more about why the "hole" is over the southern pole (as opposed to the northern) instead.
So, yes. Burnt. Not too bad. I think. I dunno. It's not warm to the touch except for a couple round patches just directly over the shoulder blades. ARGH! Another step closer to skin cancer. *frustrated*
I think I also managed to offend Colleen. Went around with the prime reason of homework for my psychology sessions (working on procrastination - using Backwards Planning) and talking about my studies. And Colleen started to tell me that I'm smart - smarter than a lot - and it's a good thing that I'll be working to finish my degree this year and if I apply myself, I should have no problems. But I cut her off. Explained that hearing such things made me feel as though I have other's expectations to live up to. And she asked if maybe she shouldn't say such things in the future and I said, yes please. I suspect she took this badly. As soon after remembered she has more clothes to hang on the line and we did not have many more than a couple words before I left.
But really, this is MY path. I know I haven't had it as bad as some people with the heaping of expectations upon them, but I live in a constant fear of being judged and it cripples me! That's the one thing that stops me from going to see people and speak to people with whom I have few interests in common - conversation always leads back to ME and what am I doing with myself and how goes studies and job hunting and life and EVERYTHING. And even now, most of those people would certainly feel uncomfortable were I to tell them, "Oh, yes. I'm going to see a psychologist and I'm working on my procrastination." Well, if I was able to say just that, but I have issues keeping my mouth shut and things would surely get awkward on someone's behalf.
So, no. I don't want to talk about any SPECIFICS related to that part of my life right now. I need to work through it on my own good time. But you know what? I am making good time! And I know it's a completely different situation and goals and focus, but working with Sara in this short amount of time, I have made leaps and bounds over what I managed with Anthony. Ok, that's not quite right. With Anthony I learnt to really open up and hand over my mind to someone else so that they could pick it apart with me and see how I truly felt about my mother's death. And this was very grueling work. With Sara we are writing problems down and tackling them head one, one at a time. So I've made more changes that I can POINT AT in seven sessions than I did in several years with Anthony.
If I were to suddenly have to pay for my sessions with Sara out of my pocket, I would continue to see her and pay willingly and happily.