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okay so today was one of the most interesting days of my life, i guess i should start with yesterday though
well i don't remember much at school or anything, but i went home and i had not much homework [though i could have been doing stuff which i'll shoot myself for having to do over this weekend...ahh] so naturally i got distracted and spent my day on myspace
horrible...
i went to Sam's page, which is pretty fruitless but i used to check it every so often, i might have even mhad him make it[if that makes sense], can't completely remember. anyhow, there were all these comments from two people, one i'm pretty sure i remember from one or two of my classes in '04, and who was friends with Erika so she was in our room at times. Chelsea i suppose. Didn't know her all that well, but i vaguely remember a few things.
Anyhow, I'm pretty sure one of them was her, considering the name was Chls and she's from Wisconsin which is one of the things i think i remember=p
Anyhow, the only other person besides Marissa that i'd talked about from camp [i guess besides erika too, but we never really discussed her, just mentioned her from time to time] was this girl Beth who he said he met and reminded him of me...and at some other point i think he was in the library and the 2 of them said hi as we were talking on aim and i said i didnt know who beth was and he was like really!? or something like that and i'm like nope sorry so i wasnt sure if i had met her or not
but, being the curious, nosy, and essentially just screwed up person that i must be, i decided to message this person, to find out if she was indeed Beth, i guess underneath it all to see if he had mentioned me to her since it seems like they were good friends, and other reasons i just can't fathom from my own mental state
so anyhow, she replied
and i feel completely embarrassed and stupid, but i'm so separated from that world now that i guess i'd do just about anything to get back into it [thats me psychoanalyzing myself]
and i'm looking forward to yet dreading us chatting [again], i really want to find out what about her was similar that he had noticed if she knows, but i don't want things to be weird which they are and i'm stupid i should just lock the cat in her skin and not let her be this curious cause i dont know what this could lead to and i'm honestly a little scared for myself right now
maybe i'm just being juvenile about the whole thing, but he makes me do stupid things
so anyhow, today i went to school and things were fine, i practiced the yoga positions for gym and let me tell you those people make it look easy. some of them are like impossible and i did them all [that we printed out]...afterwards i swear i felt taller...and like i had better posture
and my back felt a little worn out
but it was almost a nice sensation afterwards=p
stalbow pushed the test on all quiet on the western front to thursday because now we're having a WWI test tuesday...actually a good thing
latin-learned new stuff for once, but i pretty much was looking up words/grammar for my story =]
lol, did i tell you i'm writing a story? in latin? about stephen and some bunnies =p
actually, stephen gets killed in the first sentence, and there are 3 bunnies as of yet, one is having an affair with the other bunnies wife after their house was destroyed by a flood. hehe, i'm having fun with it as you may be able to tell. i can't refrain from telling anyone, its nuts.
so english, i wanted to get going with tale of two cities, but no, we ended up talking the whole period about the essay due [thankfully] tuesday now cuz suchy's not gonna be here monday...still its a lot of work and i'm stressed out
okay so lunch...
i come into the cafeteria, theres this new crowd that i've never seen in the hallway getting there and in there...and so i'm freaking out cuz i don't see Shaun and i don't know what to do
i get to my table, and some random kid is sitting where Shaun usually sits
this pushes me over the edge of paranoia
i remind myself that it is definetly 8th period, i just came from english 6/7, and its 11:13 or so. and i see Shaun's bookbag underneath my usual seat, so he must have been on the lunch line.
so, not that i'm being stereotypical or anything and im trying to say this in the nicest way possible, but i was afraid the kid sitting there might be mentally retarded. like he'd never been there before, and he wasn't speaking, and when i sat down i kinda said hi in a questioning way and he just kinda looked at me funny i wasnt sure if he heard me or not. i just didnt want him to be another jon sandow or matthew sanso you know? theres nothing wrong with them, but its just so creepy and i try to be nice but it makes my insides curl and im sorry if im offending anyone but i like my personal space sometimes you know?
anyhow, so the kids just sitting there eating his lunch, and i didnt know what to think or what to do so i'm sitting there starting my chem homework, praying to the universe that someone, anyone, come to the table. unfortunately it was the day when noone was there-well not noone, but most people were gone
so im watching and watching and finally i see vijay...and its vijay, but still im like get your butt over here with my superpowers and finally he comes over
and he goes do you know him? [as in do i know the kid sitting there, me assuming he meant that he knew the kid and was asking if we'd ever met.] i say no, and kid says something like he switched lunch period but im not sure if that was at this moment in time that i'm describing but essentially it fits
ahh i was all freaked out at first, but he was quiet so it was okay idk i kinda want to know what his name is
i wonder if he'll come back, and if he does, what'll happen when becca and stephen and katie and brett and lauren and nicole come on monday!?
so anyway, during lunch was weird, cuz he was across the table from me and everytime i looked up he'd be there [duh] and idk i kept trying to hint that maybe he should say something, but he never did. granted i only really tried twice, and he might not have heard me, but we'll see i guess? mystery man...
so then shaun sat next to me i guess cuz the kid sat in his spot, or he just felt like it im not sure
but anyhoo shaun said, as i was doing my chem homework, and said ughh i have lab today:(
he said 'i had lab today too, oh and my chem teacher said one of the female chem teachers resigned "for personal reasons" yesterday'
and i'm like OOH, well wait, how many female chem teachers are there?
and hes like well probably one or two
and i'm like AHH! and i did a little giggle scream, knowing it couldn't be true, but it was something to perk me up that i had hope.
and i think vijay said whyd she scream or something like that
and shaun said "theres a good chance her chem teacher may have resigned yesterday"
not that i believed it...
so anyhow, lunch was awkward
then i went down to chem..
I walk in.
There's no "Do Now" sitting on the counter.
I turn my head.
Mr. Hala is sitting in front of the computer.
Basara is nowhere to be seen.
I see Becca and Joe.
They see me.
I smile as wide as humanly possible.
I am elated.
MS.BASARA QUIT!!!!!!
AND SHE'S GONE!!!
AND SHE'S NOT OUR TEACHER ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Best day ever. Well, not true, more of a hyperbole, but still.
AHH!
So we got to chill for 2 periods with a sub, our new teacher starts on Monday, he apparently is the BEST, as i've heard from several people and can testify personally that he seems quite cool.
Did i mention I'm elated!?!?!?!?!
So York, Becca, Stephen and I played rocket pretty much the whole time
then Science Research, chatted with Daisy a bit about my latin story, lol, and what have you
Well that's pretty much my life in the last day and a half in a nutshell.
=]=[=]=[
Haha, i can't decide
I'm excited, yet anxious, and i have a headache from the homework i haven't even started yet, and i can't sit still from the elation.
And, I'm sorry it came to this, because she's a nice lady for the most part, and I wish her well for wherever she is now, and I hope she's happy with her soon to be husband. But as long as she's not teaching me Chemistry. Most horrible teacher I've ever had.
And i thought the same about Mr.Jones in the beginning of the year, i wanted to hook them up and make them elope so I'd be rid of them both.
But now i'm okay with Mr.Jones
Still a little sensitive about the whole he was probably looking at my boobs that one time and he's probably in love with me...
But at least I'm learning stuff, not during class, haha, but he's a pretty cool guy otherwise. And i listen, usually. Sometimes i don't need to. He never calls on me anyway, simply because he knows i know. And at the beginning of the year it annoyed the crap out of me, but now it just allows me to do other things. =]
So yeah, i was trying to end this entry.
Field trip TOMORROW.
Bus leaves at fricken 6:00 AM. That's ridiculous, i don't even have to wake up that early for SCHOOL. Now i have to LEAVE MY HOUSE at 5:30. AHHH I'm gonna die, listening to presentations on science crap all day, =[
and Brian Pei's not even going to give us some entertainment :(
ah well, now Billy's going...and we've been chatting a bit more lately. hah. Anyhow, not that i care, gotta stop writing now
did i mention my average was 103.338?
Just thought i'd put that somewhere, i completely forgot to write it on lj last quarter so i have no idea what i got 1st q. i probably went down like a couple thousandts of a point...but i have yet to find anyone like even getting to 102 this year; i could be wrong, correct me if you know someone, just like the safety net is all.
Valedictorian is like my dream.
It'd be nice to know all this work and stress will actually pay off someday, instead of getting hated for having too high an average =p
well i don't remember much at school or anything, but i went home and i had not much homework [though i could have been doing stuff which i'll shoot myself for having to do over this weekend...ahh] so naturally i got distracted and spent my day on myspace
horrible...
i went to Sam's page, which is pretty fruitless but i used to check it every so often, i might have even mhad him make it[if that makes sense], can't completely remember. anyhow, there were all these comments from two people, one i'm pretty sure i remember from one or two of my classes in '04, and who was friends with Erika so she was in our room at times. Chelsea i suppose. Didn't know her all that well, but i vaguely remember a few things.
Anyhow, I'm pretty sure one of them was her, considering the name was Chls and she's from Wisconsin which is one of the things i think i remember=p
Anyhow, the only other person besides Marissa that i'd talked about from camp [i guess besides erika too, but we never really discussed her, just mentioned her from time to time] was this girl Beth who he said he met and reminded him of me...and at some other point i think he was in the library and the 2 of them said hi as we were talking on aim and i said i didnt know who beth was and he was like really!? or something like that and i'm like nope sorry so i wasnt sure if i had met her or not
but, being the curious, nosy, and essentially just screwed up person that i must be, i decided to message this person, to find out if she was indeed Beth, i guess underneath it all to see if he had mentioned me to her since it seems like they were good friends, and other reasons i just can't fathom from my own mental state
so anyhow, she replied
and i feel completely embarrassed and stupid, but i'm so separated from that world now that i guess i'd do just about anything to get back into it [thats me psychoanalyzing myself]
and i'm looking forward to yet dreading us chatting [again], i really want to find out what about her was similar that he had noticed if she knows, but i don't want things to be weird which they are and i'm stupid i should just lock the cat in her skin and not let her be this curious cause i dont know what this could lead to and i'm honestly a little scared for myself right now
maybe i'm just being juvenile about the whole thing, but he makes me do stupid things
so anyhow, today i went to school and things were fine, i practiced the yoga positions for gym and let me tell you those people make it look easy. some of them are like impossible and i did them all [that we printed out]...afterwards i swear i felt taller...and like i had better posture
and my back felt a little worn out
but it was almost a nice sensation afterwards=p
stalbow pushed the test on all quiet on the western front to thursday because now we're having a WWI test tuesday...actually a good thing
latin-learned new stuff for once, but i pretty much was looking up words/grammar for my story =]
lol, did i tell you i'm writing a story? in latin? about stephen and some bunnies =p
actually, stephen gets killed in the first sentence, and there are 3 bunnies as of yet, one is having an affair with the other bunnies wife after their house was destroyed by a flood. hehe, i'm having fun with it as you may be able to tell. i can't refrain from telling anyone, its nuts.
so english, i wanted to get going with tale of two cities, but no, we ended up talking the whole period about the essay due [thankfully] tuesday now cuz suchy's not gonna be here monday...still its a lot of work and i'm stressed out
okay so lunch...
i come into the cafeteria, theres this new crowd that i've never seen in the hallway getting there and in there...and so i'm freaking out cuz i don't see Shaun and i don't know what to do
i get to my table, and some random kid is sitting where Shaun usually sits
this pushes me over the edge of paranoia
i remind myself that it is definetly 8th period, i just came from english 6/7, and its 11:13 or so. and i see Shaun's bookbag underneath my usual seat, so he must have been on the lunch line.
so, not that i'm being stereotypical or anything and im trying to say this in the nicest way possible, but i was afraid the kid sitting there might be mentally retarded. like he'd never been there before, and he wasn't speaking, and when i sat down i kinda said hi in a questioning way and he just kinda looked at me funny i wasnt sure if he heard me or not. i just didnt want him to be another jon sandow or matthew sanso you know? theres nothing wrong with them, but its just so creepy and i try to be nice but it makes my insides curl and im sorry if im offending anyone but i like my personal space sometimes you know?
anyhow, so the kids just sitting there eating his lunch, and i didnt know what to think or what to do so i'm sitting there starting my chem homework, praying to the universe that someone, anyone, come to the table. unfortunately it was the day when noone was there-well not noone, but most people were gone
so im watching and watching and finally i see vijay...and its vijay, but still im like get your butt over here with my superpowers and finally he comes over
and he goes do you know him? [as in do i know the kid sitting there, me assuming he meant that he knew the kid and was asking if we'd ever met.] i say no, and kid says something like he switched lunch period but im not sure if that was at this moment in time that i'm describing but essentially it fits
ahh i was all freaked out at first, but he was quiet so it was okay idk i kinda want to know what his name is
i wonder if he'll come back, and if he does, what'll happen when becca and stephen and katie and brett and lauren and nicole come on monday!?
so anyway, during lunch was weird, cuz he was across the table from me and everytime i looked up he'd be there [duh] and idk i kept trying to hint that maybe he should say something, but he never did. granted i only really tried twice, and he might not have heard me, but we'll see i guess? mystery man...
so then shaun sat next to me i guess cuz the kid sat in his spot, or he just felt like it im not sure
but anyhoo shaun said, as i was doing my chem homework, and said ughh i have lab today:(
he said 'i had lab today too, oh and my chem teacher said one of the female chem teachers resigned "for personal reasons" yesterday'
and i'm like OOH, well wait, how many female chem teachers are there?
and hes like well probably one or two
and i'm like AHH! and i did a little giggle scream, knowing it couldn't be true, but it was something to perk me up that i had hope.
and i think vijay said whyd she scream or something like that
and shaun said "theres a good chance her chem teacher may have resigned yesterday"
not that i believed it...
so anyhow, lunch was awkward
then i went down to chem..
I walk in.
There's no "Do Now" sitting on the counter.
I turn my head.
Mr. Hala is sitting in front of the computer.
Basara is nowhere to be seen.
I see Becca and Joe.
They see me.
I smile as wide as humanly possible.
I am elated.
MS.BASARA QUIT!!!!!!
AND SHE'S GONE!!!
AND SHE'S NOT OUR TEACHER ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Best day ever. Well, not true, more of a hyperbole, but still.
AHH!
So we got to chill for 2 periods with a sub, our new teacher starts on Monday, he apparently is the BEST, as i've heard from several people and can testify personally that he seems quite cool.
Did i mention I'm elated!?!?!?!?!
So York, Becca, Stephen and I played rocket pretty much the whole time
then Science Research, chatted with Daisy a bit about my latin story, lol, and what have you
Well that's pretty much my life in the last day and a half in a nutshell.
=]=[=]=[
Haha, i can't decide
I'm excited, yet anxious, and i have a headache from the homework i haven't even started yet, and i can't sit still from the elation.
And, I'm sorry it came to this, because she's a nice lady for the most part, and I wish her well for wherever she is now, and I hope she's happy with her soon to be husband. But as long as she's not teaching me Chemistry. Most horrible teacher I've ever had.
And i thought the same about Mr.Jones in the beginning of the year, i wanted to hook them up and make them elope so I'd be rid of them both.
But now i'm okay with Mr.Jones
Still a little sensitive about the whole he was probably looking at my boobs that one time and he's probably in love with me...
But at least I'm learning stuff, not during class, haha, but he's a pretty cool guy otherwise. And i listen, usually. Sometimes i don't need to. He never calls on me anyway, simply because he knows i know. And at the beginning of the year it annoyed the crap out of me, but now it just allows me to do other things. =]
So yeah, i was trying to end this entry.
Field trip TOMORROW.
Bus leaves at fricken 6:00 AM. That's ridiculous, i don't even have to wake up that early for SCHOOL. Now i have to LEAVE MY HOUSE at 5:30. AHHH I'm gonna die, listening to presentations on science crap all day, =[
and Brian Pei's not even going to give us some entertainment :(
ah well, now Billy's going...and we've been chatting a bit more lately. hah. Anyhow, not that i care, gotta stop writing now
did i mention my average was 103.338?
Just thought i'd put that somewhere, i completely forgot to write it on lj last quarter so i have no idea what i got 1st q. i probably went down like a couple thousandts of a point...but i have yet to find anyone like even getting to 102 this year; i could be wrong, correct me if you know someone, just like the safety net is all.
Valedictorian is like my dream.
It'd be nice to know all this work and stress will actually pay off someday, instead of getting hated for having too high an average =p