Power
What is power? What is influence? What is motivation? What influences us, sometimes an event can be so large and powerful that we don't even consider it as being. Sometimes a string of little things can make us what we are and who we are. Adaptation, its the story of the adaptation of a story of a story. Maybe that doesn't make sense but that is what it is. Sometimes, most of the time its better to look at the story of the story than the story. What does it take to infect many, maybe you go from person to person and infect them with you and what you are, but maybe you go from person to person and adapt who you are to influence that person almost like a support so that person is showed that they are understoud and loved. What happens when that person really isnt loved? Does it really make a difference, I think not. Where theres a man that has no voice there shadows shall be. In the end only kindness matters, well no there are a lot more things than that. Just be. Don't fight it, dont be this or that just be. You aren' this or that you just are and things arent this or that they just are. You can stop and think about what path to take but really are you making that decision, when we stop and think the eliments of our life and our environment take over our thought and we are unable to think in pure what it is we need. What is is our hearts need. In my heart of heart i believe when we think we take away our heart and we are not the decisions we make anymore. The decisions that are made are based on a media and environment tainted haze that we are unable to avoid what we really need and what we really want. To keep moving is such a easy solution but so ineffective to stand and wait is an easy solution too but also not effective and thus, its neither one or the other. One must be in motion but in the same respect be able to just stop for whatever one needs and whatever one wants to just be. Move and stop, move and stop. Barry Sanders the most poetic athlete in the history of sports was an expert. Stop and move, stop and go, genius. And so, we should take a minute and smile? No. When we take a minute to smile we will put it off all day, when we let it happen we find ourselves smiling all day. I have been able to just stop thinking. Many people look at me like what are you talking about? I say to them, I can just sit and be and not think. Thinking blocks so many other aspects of who we are. When one constantly thinks it is so easy to let those thoughts just drift to idle thoughts, about violence, about self damage, about sexual experiences. I once remember a time where i felt like i was floating and I was just watching everything that was happening. Like a tv show with no ending in sight I watch not out of enjoyment but out of fear to do anything else. I floated but yet I was restricted to think and feel free, I was restricted to what was and not what is and what may be. I tried though i did to rid myself of that feeling so hard. I tried until I felt like i couldn't anymore and then when i released my grip from the neck of unhappiness and let go I was able to grow again. Maybe I stopped growing when I was 13, but I am ready to grow again. People take what they may from me, sometimes i am not ready to let it go and sometimes i dont even know they are taking it. I dont feel like i am floating anymore and that I do have control of where I go.
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