More Mental Gravy
Ahhhh this midterm isnt working out. You would think the more time I spent on it the better I would understand it but alas not the case. I have answers I could put down but i know I could come up with better ones, sort of like life. I know I have answers now, I know that these answers might work, but I am still working through all of this to try and get the best answers so I dont lose anything in the process. Lose is a hard thing for a lot of people, therer are plenty different types of loss sometimes when we grow we lose part of ourselves and we don't even realize its gone unitl we look at who and where we are and realize hey I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be. Love works in mysterious ways, there are two sides to love and it doesnt take two to love but one with understanding. Sometimes we lack understanding and reasoning and can't put into words what we really feel, we think its that good that we can't even put into words, well I would contest that if we can't understand our emotions enough to release them then maybe what we are living is a lie. Its really tough to assess ones situation without taking your head out of the clouds, a lot of things just seem so much nicer up there but we lose focus of what we need and who we are and that can not be avoided. Love is a powerful word but it is too frequently used, or is it? Love is so scary for so many people I once told a girl I loved her and she said, but do you? I said I didn't think about saying that it just came out so I do yes. Why is it we need to evaluate and assess our situations so vigorously, when all we are doing is letting our brain control us instread of our heart. If we could just let go and let our hearts control our actions we would make decisions that were emotionally based sure, but when we stop expressing our emotions dont we die? In someway or another we die when we can no longer display our emotions. I know people around me who have seen too much and done too much and now are just emotionally dead and I would give all I have and all i could ever get to see them emotional again. Lionel Richie sings these great love songs, I don't know the words are just so true, its too bad his music videos are so corny and all my friends make fun of his songs. I am reminder that MOST people write about what they did for that particular day in there live journal, where they went, who they saw, about life. I spin rhyme about life that are not undersoud by the weak of heart and weak of mind. I let go of all of my emotional baggage to whome ever is willing to look at it when its down. I am a well rounded man, I have a chip on either shoulder, I have a heart that I have closed of from others, I have a brain constantly spinning, constantly assessing situations as not to be tricked like I have been before. Don't trust your memory it is a net full of holes, the most beautiful prizes always slip through. It is like an orgasm of the mind that I am able to write in this blogg, its just so much to let go of. Dont get lost in the words the emotions are always there. If you think words are so important why is it you never have anything to say? In all that I have blessed and all I have wronged I sit in regret for all I have done. I will wait for you there like a stone, I will wait for you there alone. Seems I found the road to no where and I am trying to escape.