Put your Past Behind you are you are going to be Behind
I hold onto things for way too long. I am seriously hurting to get work done. I have sooooo much stuff to do and I thought I would be ok after this week but no I am not going to be. Not until Decemember am I going to be ok. I have so much to do so much to work on. I feel like my head and body are screaming so loud and I just want to give up. I cant organize everything in my head. I wasted so much time and efforts and energy on someone i wanted to help so bad and I was nothing and it hurts and I still wonder what went wrong. We didn't date, we didn't kiss, we held hands sometimes which i don't do we spent time together and she pulled me out of my shell. That is all great but now I am seriously fucked over. I can do this i am getting things done but I don't know I am just under so much intense stress. I am a powerful person. I can influence many people I can influence a mass of people. I have learned a lot over the years and have become stronger and more of a leader. I am able to be the best at whatever i concetrate my efforts too until now. I rarely fail but I have. I don't know what to do is there someone that will help me out of this mess?
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