Meh
I am so emotional exhausted. I guess I forward myself as being too negative and that puts a lot of people off. I don't know, I wouldn't feel that way if I felt like I was so alone and incapable of being with someone ever again. It seems that I always fall for the people that having something else going on, are emotionally messed up, are not relationship savvy enough to know how I feel about them without me flat out saying it. Really, I should just vocalize what I feel about people, but then I will surely be rejected. Sometimes I am not even vocalizing what I feel but am being reject. I am so frustrated really about it all. Its the old phrase by Groucho Marx, " I would choose to join any club that would have me for a member" I wouldnt date these girls that fall for me, or maybe I would, I dont know if some fall for me when I am interested in them. I am so afraid of being not accepted, I think there are so many things that are going on with me.
I can't fight my deepest emotions
I could fall in love with the waves in the ocean
I they were to pay attention to me
What a relationship that would be
I was more observant this time. I was more aware of my surroundings. I told myself I don't care, but I oh so care. I will really miss the way she looked into my eyes and confided in me. I ended up going down the same road. Giving all i had to try and warm this lonely heart. I have lost my childhood I don't know if I really ever had it. Maybe later in life i will be respected more for it but right now I am just understoud less for it.
I feel like a puzzle and half of my pieces are missing but I cant figure out where they are. So I keep on trying pieces that I know won't fit and even though I say it wont hurt it does.
Its probably better this way. Maybe my life would be easier with one less person to let down on such a high level. I really aproached this like i had no chance at all and I would just go with whatever happened. Well, the brain may be able to compute but it never takes consideration for the heart, which always has the last say.
You look so fine
I want to break your heart
And give you mine
You're taking me over
It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over
I'm not like all the other guys
I can't take it like the other guys
I won't share it like the other guys
That you used to know
You look so fine
Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
I'm through
Bleeding for you
I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
I thought you were the right one for me
You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave him behind
If you want to show me
I'm not like all the other guys
I won't take it like the other guys
I won't fake it like the other guys
That you used to know
You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over
You're taking me over
Drown in me one more time
Hide inside me tonight
Do what you want to do
Just pretend happy end
Let me know let it show
Ending with letting go
END
I can't fight my deepest emotions
I could fall in love with the waves in the ocean
I they were to pay attention to me
What a relationship that would be
I was more observant this time. I was more aware of my surroundings. I told myself I don't care, but I oh so care. I will really miss the way she looked into my eyes and confided in me. I ended up going down the same road. Giving all i had to try and warm this lonely heart. I have lost my childhood I don't know if I really ever had it. Maybe later in life i will be respected more for it but right now I am just understoud less for it.
I feel like a puzzle and half of my pieces are missing but I cant figure out where they are. So I keep on trying pieces that I know won't fit and even though I say it wont hurt it does.
Its probably better this way. Maybe my life would be easier with one less person to let down on such a high level. I really aproached this like i had no chance at all and I would just go with whatever happened. Well, the brain may be able to compute but it never takes consideration for the heart, which always has the last say.
You look so fine
I want to break your heart
And give you mine
You're taking me over
It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over
I'm not like all the other guys
I can't take it like the other guys
I won't share it like the other guys
That you used to know
You look so fine
Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
I'm through
Bleeding for you
I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
I thought you were the right one for me
You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave him behind
If you want to show me
I'm not like all the other guys
I won't take it like the other guys
I won't fake it like the other guys
That you used to know
You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over
You're taking me over
Drown in me one more time
Hide inside me tonight
Do what you want to do
Just pretend happy end
Let me know let it show
Ending with letting go
END