Log 5 - Day 3
...Didn't get much farther than my own room last night. Kuronue came first. Ginji never did. I hope he's alright. I should have gone looking for him.
Still, I can't help but feel a sort of relief after last night. I finally received the chance to explain to Kuronue the guilt I'd been feeling since the day he died. It was quite difficult, and took nearly everything I had in me to keep from breaking down. I can't even put into words how much I've missed him all these years.
But it was all worth it. He doesn't hate me like I thought he would. He doesn't blame me at all. If I were in his place, I wouldn't want him to feel bad either... So, I promised I wouldn't dwell on it any longer. Or rather, that I would try, at least. This is the last time I will speak of it.
I want to try again tomorrow night for Kuronue's pendent. He deserves to have it back. I think I have the system figured out, but I'll have to find Ginji first and see if he's still up to it.
Still, I can't help but feel a sort of relief after last night. I finally received the chance to explain to Kuronue the guilt I'd been feeling since the day he died. It was quite difficult, and took nearly everything I had in me to keep from breaking down. I can't even put into words how much I've missed him all these years.
But it was all worth it. He doesn't hate me like I thought he would. He doesn't blame me at all. If I were in his place, I wouldn't want him to feel bad either... So, I promised I wouldn't dwell on it any longer. Or rather, that I would try, at least. This is the last time I will speak of it.
I want to try again tomorrow night for Kuronue's pendent. He deserves to have it back. I think I have the system figured out, but I'll have to find Ginji first and see if he's still up to it.