paint the sky with stars

[foxyninja]

so, yesterday was probably one of the better days i've had in a while. it was painting day at the new school location, and they asked me if i'd be willing to come over and help - which, naturally, i was. so i headed over at 11 in the morning, and got to working right away. about 10 minutes later, you-know-who shows up and gives me a big hug. it's been a whole week since i'd seen him, so it felt really weird to see him again. the funny thing is, i kind of felt like i managed to milden my feelings a bit during that time of absence, but the moment i saw him--WHOOSH! all those feelings just came rushing back. actually, it was the moment i heard him, to be exact. i was tucked away in a little corner somewhere, so as soon as i heard his voice when he came in, my heart stopped beating and i felt all of a sudden like i couldn't breathe. then he finally came over to me like 3 minutes later, so i dropped all that and just played it cool. anyway, after a few minutes, he eventually came back into the room i was working on and started helping me out. this got me really excited, since it meant we'd be working together in such tight quarters. let me tell you... it really was like how i had fantasized - which NEVER happens. in the room we were in, all the furniture was bundled together in the centre of the room, and the room was pretty narrow to begin with, so a lot of the time we had to be reaching over eachother for paint and other things. then he initiated the whole 'paint war', by wiping a streak of paint on my skin. so, naturally, i retaliated. that continued on in moments throughout the day, and we were both COVERED in so much paint by the end. it was sooooo much fun though. another awesome thing that happened halfway throughout the day was that we ran out of masking tape, so he decided he was going to go out to staples to get some, and asked me - ME, to go with him! there was really no need for me to go, but there was no way in hell i would have said no. so we had a nice little walk; chatted a bit about what we did during the first week of our break and whatnot. once we got back, we just continued working as before. that pretty much lasted until we were done around 6, at which point they had bought us all a case of beer, so we kind of all just sat around drinking and chatting. i'm not much of a social person though, so i decided to stray from the group to go sit down in a chair somewhere, and the awesome thing was he actually came over to sit down in a chair next to me. we continued chatting a bit then, which was really really nice. i actually managed to find out the area he lives in, which is pretty close to me surprisingly! not walking distance close, but we're both off the same main road at least. and then the sweetest thing happened - since he discovered we're both in the same general area, he offered me a ride home! i seriously just melted in my seat when he asked that, and of course said yes. so by the time we were all done and ready to leave, i headed off with him to his car, and we chatted some more during the ride. the only bad thing i'd have to say about that was i was a little tipsy from the beer, and when i drink i tend to blabber on about random stuff ALOT, which i totally did. it was all about me too - my ambitions, my business plans, stuff i'm good at, blah blah blah. i didn't even realize i was rambling until afterwards, at which point it was too late. i just hope it didn't turn him off or anything. but, oh well. the rest of the day totally made up for it. so he gave me a car hug goodbye/thank you (not quite the dramatic 'longing-stare-in-the-eyes-then-lunge-at-eachother's-lips' moment i had been fantasizing about, but hey. i can only expect so much.)

so, overall, yes, a very good day. i'm nearing the end of my course soon, so i'm definitely going to need a lot more days like these if i'm going to have any chance at all. i'm also still not so sure about his situation with that chick from before - maybe it was just a one time thing? i honestly don't know. but that's what i'm telling myself in order to keep my hopes up. i know that's probably not healthy, but hey... when i want something, i am going to fight fight fight for it, no matter what it takes!