well......
i finally changed my journal to reflect a little of the person i am today. i had some sort of orange and yellow background and that always kept me from wanting to write or read entries. It reminded me of a time that means little to me now. I have now entered perhaps the most difficult time of my life: figuring out what i want to do, who i want to do it with, etc.
I have not been getting the rest that i need lately which has put me into a slump. often i am so tired that i don't answer my phone or hangout with my friends.when people say lets go to a party i immediately think good,since they are going out it will give me time to rest.
sometimes i wonder what happened to the "friends" i once had.
what does the word friend mean? I know what it implies yet the meaning seems to always be out of my reach.
Depression has set in and i don't see it leaving anytime soon.
I have decided to self medicate myself:
hang out with friends at least once a week
watch one comedy a week
watch one horror a week
do my hair for the entire week(i never realised how looking like shit depresses ones self)
and finally NO POLITICS for an entire week outside of the classroom (heidi and liz i can do this)
and to all the friends of yester years i re-invite you to be a part of my life
I have not been getting the rest that i need lately which has put me into a slump. often i am so tired that i don't answer my phone or hangout with my friends.when people say lets go to a party i immediately think good,since they are going out it will give me time to rest.
sometimes i wonder what happened to the "friends" i once had.
what does the word friend mean? I know what it implies yet the meaning seems to always be out of my reach.
Depression has set in and i don't see it leaving anytime soon.
I have decided to self medicate myself:
hang out with friends at least once a week
watch one comedy a week
watch one horror a week
do my hair for the entire week(i never realised how looking like shit depresses ones self)
and finally NO POLITICS for an entire week outside of the classroom (heidi and liz i can do this)
and to all the friends of yester years i re-invite you to be a part of my life