Here comes the Bride
Well today is the day my dad gets married. Im not real sure how i feel about this to be honest. Im happy he is happy and Carol (thats his gonna be new wife) seems to make him very happy. The fact im gettin a new house for free out of it is nice too but.... theres the mom thing.
You guys no my mom passed away about 3 years ago now. She had been very sick for a very long time and bed ridden for the last 2 years of her life.
She knew she was gonna die soon and always told my dad if he got married again she would haunt him. And i have no doubt if its possible she will do exactly that. Which brings me to why im not as happy for him as i should be im feel disloyal to my mother she was a wonderful woman who would do anything she could for someone she loved. Like this guy that was a good friend of my mom and dads from church he had really bad teeth that caused him endless pain. But he was broke and had no money to get them fixed so my mother the kind woman she was gave him the money to have them pulled and get his false teeth just cause she couldnt stand to see him suffer.
And thats just one example she did stuff like that all the time. My mom and dad where married for 53 years which is a very long time and dad devoted the last 5 of them to take total care of her i feel he honored all of his promises ..paid his dues and should spend the rest of his life happy. But there is still the nagging thought that mother would disapprove.
But i will get on my new dress go to the wedding and be happy for them if it kills me. Im so gonna cry i know this cause i cryed yesterday just thinking about it. But everyone crys at a wedding right? So i wont stick out as strange.
I do like Carol......notice i didnt say love. She is a very nice lady an she has a son so i get a new step brother who btw i have ment once. We went to high school together but we ran in different circles so i dont know him at all. But i dont guess that much matters. Since we are both 40 its alittle to late to play together lol.
Well enough out of me i miss you guys Sean is leaving Monday so ill be back to buggin ya soon enough *hugs*
You guys no my mom passed away about 3 years ago now. She had been very sick for a very long time and bed ridden for the last 2 years of her life.
She knew she was gonna die soon and always told my dad if he got married again she would haunt him. And i have no doubt if its possible she will do exactly that. Which brings me to why im not as happy for him as i should be im feel disloyal to my mother she was a wonderful woman who would do anything she could for someone she loved. Like this guy that was a good friend of my mom and dads from church he had really bad teeth that caused him endless pain. But he was broke and had no money to get them fixed so my mother the kind woman she was gave him the money to have them pulled and get his false teeth just cause she couldnt stand to see him suffer.
And thats just one example she did stuff like that all the time. My mom and dad where married for 53 years which is a very long time and dad devoted the last 5 of them to take total care of her i feel he honored all of his promises ..paid his dues and should spend the rest of his life happy. But there is still the nagging thought that mother would disapprove.
But i will get on my new dress go to the wedding and be happy for them if it kills me. Im so gonna cry i know this cause i cryed yesterday just thinking about it. But everyone crys at a wedding right? So i wont stick out as strange.
I do like Carol......notice i didnt say love. She is a very nice lady an she has a son so i get a new step brother who btw i have ment once. We went to high school together but we ran in different circles so i dont know him at all. But i dont guess that much matters. Since we are both 40 its alittle to late to play together lol.
Well enough out of me i miss you guys Sean is leaving Monday so ill be back to buggin ya soon enough *hugs*