It was all a LIE
I'm probably in the hugest state of shock I've ever been in. Or close. I don't know. But I am giving up on "love" because it gave up on me a long ass time ago. The whole time, he was never over his ex. Those two months? A motherfucking WASTE of my time. He never meant any of it, it was all a bunch of motherfucking bullshit. And I put so much into it, I gave him everything, but I can't be her, and that's why I get screwed. Because I'm myself and I am a good person and a good girlfriend and I just get SCREWED. How the fuck does that work out? No...no more guys for me. I just can't do it anymore...it hurts too bad and too many times. I have never not been in a relationship where I find out later that the guy never meant any of it and put me through a bunch of fucking bullshit. God, fuck this.