The State of the World Today

[foxycleo]

wow. where should i begin, mary's house is always a blast even when we don't really do anything it's always interesting to just be with her, there's always something to talk about or busy yourself with. yay! i'm only a few days away from hanging out with her again. i met her new boyfriend and i don't think i've liked any of the others this much. he's a keeper. he seems to be a respectful and loving young man who possess the ambition and intelligence to be successful.i likey. anywhoot, speaking of relationships cedric and i are on the fast track to comfort, we need something spontaneous, a boom of sorts , a jolt! we need another day at the beach, i should totally do something with him tommorow. i'll see. my mom is thinking of moving to jacksonville. i am definitely not going. but get this, she's saying "i don't feel you're ready for your own apartment" isn't that nuts? she's not worried about the money she just doesn't think i can handle it. hell , i don't know if i can handle it, but unless i get out there and get my feet wet how will i ever know? didn't i also think i couldn't handle being in high school? couldn't handle my personal demons? couldn't handle graduation? couldn't handle my school problems? yes. yes. i did. but alas (hehe mary) i am handling these things and overcoming every day not by cowering in a corner afraid of life, but by living more fully each day. i am ready to live ready to soar, i'm ready to fall on my ass and get up because i know that i've fallen and gotten up once on my own and damnit i can do it again. so what if i'm not ready. first time mothers are not ready. first time teachers are not ready. does that mean we should abandon the pursuit of life and knowledge, no my friends it does not. of course it does not. i am going to get an apartment and that's that! anywhoot, along i go on the ramble train.... oh yeah joey is adjusting to life in tampa. he finally got that transfer job at ross and is looking into the schools in the area for next year. i think i'll end up going up there to see a play with him "men cry in the dark" since we both read the book and the title is really special to us. i hope that works out because i really do miss my homey i was supposed to go see him for his birthday but that didn't work out so i'm even more eager to make it work this time, ya dig? (wow, i really love that phrase). being away from him is just weird. i can't just go to his house when i'm sleepy and don't want to be stressed out at home anymore. poo. oh yeah my job has expanded now i'm using excel as well as another program. yay, i'm moving onward and outward. living, just living.

wake up,
Danielle