Well
Well things are still really weird. I still have a lot of the feelings that I had last post. I dont think we'll ever be as good as we once were. We talk but not really. I feel as though its a never ending battle. And Im not sure I have the strength to fight it anymore. He is my number 1 pick, but I dont think I'm his. He is my best friend (well not lately) and I tell him everything. I am barely even his friend. He talks to everyone but me. I'll eventually get what I deserve.
Me and Jordan went to Kati's house on Wednesday. Jordan liked it over there. He likes his aunt and uncle. Uncle Chris even held him....twice! It was nice to hang out with them again. I havent seen Kati in forever.
Jordan is still sick. I feel bad he is always really stuffy when he wakes up. And he sleeps like crap.