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Can you honestly say that you loved me? That you WERE IN LOVE with me? That you seriously wanted to marry me? Or was that all just so that you could string me a long? I dont get you, I dont get you at all. Does it make you feel better to know that I let you walk all over me? Does it make you feel like a man? How does it make you feel that you've once again crushed all of my dreams? How does it make you feel that you've taken my joy in life away? How are you feeling right now? Are you happy, sad, upset, dont give a shit? Do you give a shit about how I feel? Do you give a shit about how you've fucked with my mind? Well thats a dumb question because if you did you would call to see if I'm ok. If you did give a shit you wouldnt have walked out. When are you going to just be true to yourself? You are not in highschool anymore, it doesn't matter what people think of you, or what the cool thing to do is. What matters is not hurting someone you care about, not making someone feel like they are a peice of shit. What matters is being yourself and telling the TRUTH. Not what you think will make someone feel better, what the HONEST TO GOD TRUTH is. Where is your head? Where is your heart?
Last night I went to Kristens and confessed my love for Kati. Yep thats right I am in love with Kati and I spy on her. There its out in the open. I feel much better. There weren't too many people there. Just me, Katidid, Kristen, Chris, Justin, Nick, and Trevor. Trevor slept most of the time and Justin bitched about it.
Tonight Justin is having some sort of reunion thing, Kati called it faggotish so I guess its a faggot reunion. I may stop by over there.
I have been watching BET for the last half hour and I have not heard one single song that I know. Now to me that is weird, where the hell are they getting this shit from?
I need to get my hair done. I think I'll have either Kelly or Erica do it. I dont want much done just some highlights.
School starts soon and I'm not happy about it.
I'm looking out the window and my car is filthy. I need to clean it inside and out. The inside wouldn't be so bad if someone wouldnt have left 34 pop cans in it. Asshole
I have to pay my phone bill soon before it gets shut off. Its not that I dont have the money I just keep forgetting to do it. Jacqui's phone is shut off...hahahaahaha
Now BET is showing the making for Ruben Studdard's Sorry song. I like that song. Yep I like it a lot. You know what other song I like? Let me tell you...Sarah Conner Bounce. Yeah thats a good song too.
I want to go to the Auto Show. I like it a lot. I'm not sure who I'll go with though. (note to self...find someone to go to the auto show with)
Guys lie.
I think every guy should dedicate Sorry 2004 to their girl. Just to let them know that they are sorry for being an ass. Of course you can saying something and meaning it are two very different things. So mean what you say and say what you mean.
Enough random thoughts for now. Good enough Kati?