Were do i start
i am really confused at the moment
my brain is kinda munted hardcore i want to leave here, meaning my house i am sick of the crap . but i know i have no cash and no chance to get out unless i go in to share acomadation, but man i dont want to do that i dont trust it and i like my alone time to much, other things that are majorly buming me out at the moment is lack of funds i always seem to be broke (hence why i couldnt move out) i am bumed out with my course i am questioning wherter i should keep going or just drop out and find a job.i am kinda sick of everyone assuming i am dumb to i am smart i mean hell i lived this long didnt i kos i dont know maths and spelling and other stuff like that doesnt make me dumb just getting sick of it i mean i joke around a i make fun of myslef to but deep down it hurts when it is said all the time i know it is only in joke but jokes all the time hurt alot i used to have a high i.q yes no it might have droped i know but i dont really care . althou on a another note i know i have to change i have been trying but i keep slpping back to my old ways now and then, or so some people tell me. of late i am trying to cover up to much stuff. on top of all this i really miss my dad alot more then normal (i mean i miss him everyday) but of late it has just been getting to me i dont know why the day of his death has passed, i guess i just kinda need him at the moment he was all ways there and had great advise fer me i guess i am missing that. and i guess this stuff with nan is really pissing me of to and i am wishing he was here to tell her to back off me. i only wish i could work out my life and be happy like trully happy for once, i mean i am happy dontget me wrong i got a great girl who loves me i mean hell she takes me back every time i stuff up ( i am trying not to do that any more babe) (i love you so much Rach) i wondered when we got together if her having a kid would wreak me but it doesnt he is a great kid and i like him he is kool cant wait to teach him some cool stuff as he get older (like how to wrestle) been going out alot of late and living above my means kinda could be way i am wreaked fer cash but still i want to live life i sat at home for to long a few years back, i want to be that great guy again that guy people reamber for the good times they had with him, not as that guy who wasnt, if ya get my drift. i have some amazing people in my life at the moment and i love them all. i in a wierd place but ia m geting there and i am feeling again. i think i am close to it just gota find a way to get away from here :) any ow i think it is bed time that was enough of a rant.
Peace All
Danny
my brain is kinda munted hardcore i want to leave here, meaning my house i am sick of the crap . but i know i have no cash and no chance to get out unless i go in to share acomadation, but man i dont want to do that i dont trust it and i like my alone time to much, other things that are majorly buming me out at the moment is lack of funds i always seem to be broke (hence why i couldnt move out) i am bumed out with my course i am questioning wherter i should keep going or just drop out and find a job.i am kinda sick of everyone assuming i am dumb to i am smart i mean hell i lived this long didnt i kos i dont know maths and spelling and other stuff like that doesnt make me dumb just getting sick of it i mean i joke around a i make fun of myslef to but deep down it hurts when it is said all the time i know it is only in joke but jokes all the time hurt alot i used to have a high i.q yes no it might have droped i know but i dont really care . althou on a another note i know i have to change i have been trying but i keep slpping back to my old ways now and then, or so some people tell me. of late i am trying to cover up to much stuff. on top of all this i really miss my dad alot more then normal (i mean i miss him everyday) but of late it has just been getting to me i dont know why the day of his death has passed, i guess i just kinda need him at the moment he was all ways there and had great advise fer me i guess i am missing that. and i guess this stuff with nan is really pissing me of to and i am wishing he was here to tell her to back off me. i only wish i could work out my life and be happy like trully happy for once, i mean i am happy dontget me wrong i got a great girl who loves me i mean hell she takes me back every time i stuff up ( i am trying not to do that any more babe) (i love you so much Rach) i wondered when we got together if her having a kid would wreak me but it doesnt he is a great kid and i like him he is kool cant wait to teach him some cool stuff as he get older (like how to wrestle) been going out alot of late and living above my means kinda could be way i am wreaked fer cash but still i want to live life i sat at home for to long a few years back, i want to be that great guy again that guy people reamber for the good times they had with him, not as that guy who wasnt, if ya get my drift. i have some amazing people in my life at the moment and i love them all. i in a wierd place but ia m geting there and i am feeling again. i think i am close to it just gota find a way to get away from here :) any ow i think it is bed time that was enough of a rant.
Peace All
Danny