thinking
Hey, So ive had a lot of things to think over. Nathan thinks i still like him and want him back. I dont think i want him back but i do think i kinda still like him. I dunno i just miss the things we used to have. I miss not having someone to hug,kiss, tell secrets to, and spend time w/. Jamie says i need to find a bf. I just wish i could clear my head and focus on something. Y the hell does everything have to b so hard. I dont know who i like any more or what i feel. Im lost inside my own head and my own emotions. Nathan called me last night cuz i was upset and kinda helped me relax before i fell a sleep. Right now i dont know what to think. I wish i could just figure something out for once. I noticed i tend to sheild myself or not let some ppl get to close for fear of being rejected or hurt. Trust is something hard for me to give. My friends have been there for me when things were so hard and i truely love them for that. A person i know once said love never dies mayb they were right. Though memories never die either. There are those lasting things u will always remember and the ppl that gave u them. well thats all for now
LOVE
Evan
LOVE
Evan