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I never realized before how much I have forgotten and how much I have chosen not to remember from wht seems now like yesterday but also so long ago. Those years were amazing and some of the worst times I have ever had to go through. I chose not to remember I chose to forget now over something stupid I had a wave of flashbacks and caused me to go into a state of shock because I still let people do it just in a different way now. I need to stop, immediatly. THis is ridiculous. YOu are supposed to learn from your mistakes not keep fucking up. Oh well I need to start taking my own advice I guess.