The Aggravation Continues
Well, I thought the problem this week was going to be work, but Tuesday and Wednesday nights have been pretty good (Wednesday we actually got out at 04:00, not to mention that retard Brent is finally gone). My problem now is my personal life.
My step-mom is still hell bent on getting me to work for the City, after I've told her numerous times I have no desire nor drive to work for a City I absolutely despise. I don't care how much more money I can make from those jobs. Those jobs will not get me to where I want to get to. I still intend on going to school to take up digital animation. I'll never get to do that if I work for the City. I don't know what it will take to get it into her head that I will not ever work for the City...and for that matter, I will not ever work for anything pertaining to the State of Missouri. I have no intentions on staying in Missouri for the rest of my life. I hate it here. And whatever it takes to get out of here, I will do it on my own. I do not need your help! You've screwed me over enough! Now drop it!
Next problem. Girls. No, it's not about any girl I like. Hell, we all know that girls that I like and find attractive don't feel that way about me. This is the exact opposite situation. Wednesday night before my shift at work, I was looking around in Market seeing if there were anything I want to have for lunch. I get approached by these two girls...one black, one white, both extreme ghetto. One of them (the white girl) came up to me and was all like "Hey, boo!" Now, truth be told, folks, when I am called the word "boo" I am immediately offended. I absolutely hate being called that. So, with a confused look on my face, I answer back with "uh, can I help you?" like I was working there. Then they both tried to tell me how much of a "sexual chocolate" I was and were trying to get my phone number. It's a good thing I remember my old cell phone number, so I gave them that and told them to call me later that night. I'm glad I forgot to bring my cell phone with me. I know they would've tried it right then and there. I swear, this is why I feel absolutely zero attraction to girls my own race. They always come off as annoying to me. And these are the type of girls I tend to attract. At one point at work, two of my coworkers were trying to get me to go with them to all these hip-hop nightclubs to try to set me up with other females, and I immediately declined told them that I hated to be set up and told them about the previous situation that happened to me at the old store (and I still haven't had the chance to gnaw the flesh off the ones responsible for that). Sheesh, if this is the type of female that I tend to attract, why the hell should I even bother looking for a girlfriend? At this point, I don't think it's even worth it anymore. I mean, it's making me sick just thinking about it. Maybe I should just stop caring all together. Now I'm seeing that a life of hermicy isn't such a bad idea.
There are 13 days left before my birthday, and to be perfectly honest, I'm not excited about it. Not in the least. I don't know what my schedule looks like that week (and I will find out tonight) but I do know that the weekend is my work weekend, so I have absolutely no plans to do anything. The weekend before I will be attending Anime St. Louis (our new local Anime con). Lately, I just don't seem to care for the day so much anymore. It doesn't mean anything to me for some reason, and it should mean something, but it just doesn't.
So far, April hasn't gone the way I wanted it to. This has to be my most depressing month of 2K7. And to be honest, it shouldn't be. Why? Why is this? I don't get. Tell me why!
My step-mom is still hell bent on getting me to work for the City, after I've told her numerous times I have no desire nor drive to work for a City I absolutely despise. I don't care how much more money I can make from those jobs. Those jobs will not get me to where I want to get to. I still intend on going to school to take up digital animation. I'll never get to do that if I work for the City. I don't know what it will take to get it into her head that I will not ever work for the City...and for that matter, I will not ever work for anything pertaining to the State of Missouri. I have no intentions on staying in Missouri for the rest of my life. I hate it here. And whatever it takes to get out of here, I will do it on my own. I do not need your help! You've screwed me over enough! Now drop it!
Next problem. Girls. No, it's not about any girl I like. Hell, we all know that girls that I like and find attractive don't feel that way about me. This is the exact opposite situation. Wednesday night before my shift at work, I was looking around in Market seeing if there were anything I want to have for lunch. I get approached by these two girls...one black, one white, both extreme ghetto. One of them (the white girl) came up to me and was all like "Hey, boo!" Now, truth be told, folks, when I am called the word "boo" I am immediately offended. I absolutely hate being called that. So, with a confused look on my face, I answer back with "uh, can I help you?" like I was working there. Then they both tried to tell me how much of a "sexual chocolate" I was and were trying to get my phone number. It's a good thing I remember my old cell phone number, so I gave them that and told them to call me later that night. I'm glad I forgot to bring my cell phone with me. I know they would've tried it right then and there. I swear, this is why I feel absolutely zero attraction to girls my own race. They always come off as annoying to me. And these are the type of girls I tend to attract. At one point at work, two of my coworkers were trying to get me to go with them to all these hip-hop nightclubs to try to set me up with other females, and I immediately declined told them that I hated to be set up and told them about the previous situation that happened to me at the old store (and I still haven't had the chance to gnaw the flesh off the ones responsible for that). Sheesh, if this is the type of female that I tend to attract, why the hell should I even bother looking for a girlfriend? At this point, I don't think it's even worth it anymore. I mean, it's making me sick just thinking about it. Maybe I should just stop caring all together. Now I'm seeing that a life of hermicy isn't such a bad idea.
There are 13 days left before my birthday, and to be perfectly honest, I'm not excited about it. Not in the least. I don't know what my schedule looks like that week (and I will find out tonight) but I do know that the weekend is my work weekend, so I have absolutely no plans to do anything. The weekend before I will be attending Anime St. Louis (our new local Anime con). Lately, I just don't seem to care for the day so much anymore. It doesn't mean anything to me for some reason, and it should mean something, but it just doesn't.
So far, April hasn't gone the way I wanted it to. This has to be my most depressing month of 2K7. And to be honest, it shouldn't be. Why? Why is this? I don't get. Tell me why!