Feeling very lonely and unwanted.
I feel like my mate doesn't find me sexualy attractive anymore. He says he's uncomfortable about sex and doesn't want to do it, that he doesn't want a relationship based on sex. I don't know if thats the truth anymore or just a lie. I feel like it is a lie and he just finds me unattractive now. And I know the excuses he uses, the reasons, his history. But I feel we are drifting apart. He has rekindled his passion for collecting lion king stuff, and wants to connect with other lion king fans in the furry fandom. I thinkt hats fine and dandy and if that makes him more confortable witht he fandom, then all the more for it. But really, I think he doesn't find me attractive anymore, doesn't want to have sex with me at all and is disgusted by me. this is how I feel, how true it is I don't know. I'm just depressed and feeling unloved. I want to find someone that I can connect with and is not afriad of sex and finds me sexualy attractive. I want to be able to cuddle with someone in bed, feel skin pressed and lots of loving deep long kisses. I want that physcal affection that is limited and lacking in me and my mate's relation. My feelings of self worth is pretty bad now, feeling unwanted, unnessary in the world, I can't say worthless, because everyone has some worth and use, but I'm not needed anymore i feel. I'm unnessary to the world.